Happy Birthday myBanako...

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Happy Birthday myBanako...

Though we are miles apart, I want you to know that you still have the bigger place here in my cute little heart... I'm missing you so much and can't wait to be with you...

iL0veyou and i always will...
Hope to be with you soon..

Happy Birthday....mwaah..

iL0veyous0much.. with all of ME...
mwaaaaaaaaahhhh.... iL0vey0us0muchmyBanako..

Shout out: http://lovingfromadistance.com/
--- I made a shout out on lovingfromadistance.com website for his Bday message and here it is.... weeee..

Hope to be with you sooner myBanako.. mwah..

L0ve L0ts,
kulit, your asawa

hoping, praying, wishing and looking forward to be with You again...

29th wish: ......his wishes....

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29: ...his space...

I'll give him the 3 days to post his wishes... came from him... His birthday is fast approaching.... whew!.. days passed by so quickly and i'm lovin it....

myBanako, post your wishes here....

28: ...his space...

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28: ...his space...

I'll give him the 3 days to post his wishes... came from him... His birthday is fast approaching.... whew!.. days passed by so quickly and i'm lovin it....

myBanako, post your wishes here....

27th wish: CONTINUE TO MAKE PLANS for OUR FUTURE with ME...

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27. CONTINUE TO MAKE PLANS for OUR FUTURE with ME...

This makes me strive hard to fulfill each plans we have and I know you do. I can't wait for our plans to come into reality myBanako. Those plans serves as my inspiration to go on each day for I know every bits of those plans are worth striving, fighting for.

And what I want is to be with you 'til we fulfill everything... and 'til we can't ask for more than just be with each other for the rest of our lives or as long as we live...

Can't wait to have real Emmy and Ace and more of them in the future... hehehe...

Take good care of Emmy myBanako, and I will take good care of Ace... I can assure you of that...


mwaaaaaaaaahhhh.... iL0vey0us0muchmyBanako..

Happy advance birthday to you myBanako...

Hope to be with you sooner myBanako.. mwah..

L0ve L0ts,
kulit, your asawa

hoping, praying, wishing and looking forward to be with You again...

26th wish: STAY THE SAME with the GOOD side but DO CHANGE with the BAD...

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26. STAY THE SAME with the GOOD side but DO CHANGE with the BAD...

Keep up the good side myBanako.... wla koi ma.storya kai gsapot koh...hahahahh....

basta mao na cya... klaro jd nga gsapot koh.. dili njd ni wish.. gsapot lng jd koh!...

update soonerr............

mwaaaaaaaaahhhh.... iL0vey0us0muchmyBanako..

Happy advance birthday to you myBanako...

Hope to be with you sooner myBanako.. mwah..

L0ve L0ts,
kulit, your asawa

hoping, praying, wishing and looking forward to be with You again...

25th wish: SISTER'S WISH...

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25. SISTER'S WISH...

Ohh, I'm so sorry....I forgot.... huhuuhuh... It's not that I'm lazy I just totally forgot that I should post the wish of her sister as I promised on the 20th..... my bad.....And it just the wish was totally, plainly out of my mind... uhuhuhuhu.. for thinking of some things or thinking on someone....not until, I found last night a piece of paper where I wrote is sister wish for me. For I asked her sister one time, when I got a chance to talk to her online... I mean chat with her... and the wish .. she says:

"bsta ako.a lng no.1 wish for him is to let him have all the best things life has to offer na unta ma.achieve niya all his dreams in life..."


my bad, I'm guilty..huhuhu.. I was not able to post the wish on the 20th... uhuhuuh....

Anyways, it's his sister wish.... and my wish on the 25th is to love you more and more each day... hehehe..mwaah


mwaaaaaaaaahhhh.... iL0vey0us0muchmyBanako..

Happy advance birthday to you myBanako...

Hope to be with you sooner myBanako.. mwah..

L0ve L0ts,
kulit, your asawa

hoping, praying, wishing and looking forward to be with You again...

24th wish: WORDS I WANNA SAY EACH DAY...

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24. WORDS I WANNA SAY EACH DAY...

I can't think of any wishes anymore.... heehehe.. I'm running out of wishes myBanako... huhuhu.. Just 6 days to go, and weee.. It is your special day... onsa man ko egift nimo wui, wla man ka anhi..huuhuh....

Anyways, this might not sound a wish but this is what I wanna do 'as long as I live'... I wanna tell you and let you feel nga.... love jd tka.. heheheh.. and the words that I wanna say each day is.....

i love you... and as always...

Let me tell it one more time, 'iloveyousomuchmyBanako..mwaaahh..'...

again...again... i love you so much still... I'm not still satisfied... i love you..mwah..
for the last time, i love you so much myBanako..mwaaaaaaahhhhh..

last njd nih.... hehehehhe.... love ayo tka, as n..mao na timan.e... whew!. can't help myself dah... nahan ko e.hug tka and say: 'iloveyou, iloveyou, iloveyou, iloveyou, iloveyou, iloveyou....' hehehe..mwaaah..

iL0veyousomuchmyBanako..mwaah.. last najd nah...

mwaaaaaaaaahhhh.... iL0vey0us0muchmyBanako.. hahaha last na nih ^.^

Happy advance birthday to you myBanako...

Hope to be with you sooner myBanako.. mwah..

L0ve L0ts,
kulit, your asawa

hoping, praying, wishing and looking forward to be with You again...

iL0veyou..mwaah... ^_^

23rd wish: KEEPING UP THE THINGS YOU LOVE ABOUT US... esp. THE SIMILARITIES...

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23. KEEPING UP THE THINGS YOU LOVE ABOUT US... esp. THE SIMILARITIES...

Continue to keep the things you love us, for the differences are the spices but our similarities are the things that inspire and made our day. I actually remembered something, your valentine letter you gave where the content is "20 Things You Love About Us"...

Keep it up myBanako, keep up how we made each our days special and complete. Keep up how you love me that much.. hehehe... For while you're keeping me up I am keeping you as well, hear in my little kulit heart.

We have one thing in common: "We may differ in many things but we share the same feelings to conquer all for this love we have.." Oh yeah \m/... OUR LOVE ROCKS, no matter how cheesy this may seem to others. How corny I am.... But those don't matter, I love him. He loves me. We love each other and that's the only thing that matters...

B, murag dli na wish sah?... hehehe, anyways, iL0vey0usomuchmyBanako.. and super miss you....

mwaaaaaaaaahhhh.... iL0vey0us0muchmyBanako..

Happy advance birthday to you myBanako...

Hope to be with you sooner myBanako.. mwah..

L0ve L0ts,
kulit, your asawa

hoping, praying, wishing and looking forward to be with You again...

22nd wish: CONTINUE TO LOVE OUR DIFFERENCES...

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22. CONTINUE TO LOVE OUR DIFFERENCES...

Honestly, I'm hating this for we argue a lot... hehehe... sorry, can't help it that you love me in your own ways not my own ways. But, no more buts kulit... toinksz, gyaw2x lagi ko saq self...

I'm thinking on the other side... The brighter side, our differences help a lot with our relationship for we know different things from each other, we learn different things and this put spices to our relationship but we need to make sure that it is not too much because ma.sobra.an nya dli na sakto... hehehe... Pero, mahurt man jpon ko B.. kaw man gd!.. huuhuhuhu... And despite the differences love jpon ayo tka... As in so much...

I'll try myBanako, nga dli naq mg.palabi nimo.... Your wish will be granted sooonnn....
mwaaaaaaaaahhhh.... iL0vey0us0muchmyBanako..

Our differences proves that two different individual can love each other so perfect despite the differences and the imperfections and of course, I am still perfectly in love with you... mwah..

Happy advance birthday to you myBanako...

Hope to be with you sooner myBanako.. mwah..

L0ve L0ts,
kulit, your asawa

hoping, praying, wishing and looking forward to be with You again...

21st wish: CONTINUE TO UNDERSTAND THINGS....

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21. CONTINUE TO UNDERSTAND THINGS....

Me, too will try to continue to understand things the way you want me to understand those things. I too can't let you understand what I want you to understand. However, you always win and I'm not against it. I just want you to know, that I need you... Not just thought, not just mere words, I need you to let me feel you're there, your love. I need you more each day especially now that we're too far away from each other.

I'm not against on anything that you do. I'm happy whatever, wherever and whichever you choose to enjoy or spend your day. What I just want you to understand is to let me know when will be your time for me. Time nga para ako.a ra for the whole long day imo rman jd nah...

There will be things that we don't understand... For we ourselves, have different things to understand and wish we can make ourselves understand each other.

Soon you'll understand enough what I felt... I just don't know when or how, maybe someday, somewhere, somehow....

and I too will understand things more deeper....

But for now, I'll let things... I'll let myself needing you more and more....

I'm still in love with you though.... as in that muccchhhhhhhh......

mwaaaaaaaaahhhh.... iL0vey0us0muchmyBanako..

Happy advance birthday to you myBanako...

Hope to be with you sooner myBanako.. mwah..

L0ve L0ts,
kulit, your asawa

hoping, praying, wishing and looking forward to be with You again...

happy 69th monthsarry myBanako...

Hi myBanako,

I can't think of any wish on this day for what I have in mind is the thought of having you near. So near within my reach, so near that I can just hug you anytime of the day, so near that you can just hear me say 'iloveyousomuchmyBanako' each day.


myBanako, thank you for everything. I really can't thank you enough, though we have flaws we still manage to make everything alright. Thank you for still holding on and for not giving up on us. Thank you for everything, I just don't know how to thank you that much...

I just remember the days, before the moment we separated our ways I'll then think the next time will see each other or be with each other. Right now, its way much different cause it's pretty big to ask to be with you. huhuhuhu....

Nevertheless, as long as we're here for each other I know we can surpass it all. We belong to each other. Ako para imo og ikaw para ako..mwaah..


happy 69th monthsarry myBanako..mwaah..

iL0veyousomuchmyBanako...mwah....

19th wish : DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA WITH THE WORD: 'IMPRINTING'?

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19. DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA WITH THE WORD: 'IMPRINTING'?

Well, I got to say that word struck me when reading the 4 books of Twilight. Way too adiccted with Twilight already, hahahah... Anyhow, I'm not like Jacob Black whose a werewolf, who falls in love with his bestfriend Bella and later on imprints with her baby, toinks hahaha. He is no similarity than me but with only one thing in common we find the ONE, like Bella find Edward and him to her.

The ONE who is our DESTINY...

I imprinted to this particular guy...

ehem!... that makes me a werewolf girl... toinksz!.. orr vampire girl?...hhmmm... not still, i'm happy as francis girl.. weeee....

Here's how I define Imprinting base on Twilight.

Imprinting : based on Twiligth book is finding who is your soulmate. Finding the person whom you can't live without. Finding the one who will complete you. Finding the right man/woman for you. Finding the one who wants to keep you safe from all harm and pain. Finding that imperfect person whom you know where you belong that it really hurst when your apart. Finding your destiny. Finding the one you will do everything and anything to the person he/she imprints.

Yahoo Answers for Imprinting:
http://answers.yahoo.com/

Furthermore, it's my 19th wish for I want you to know that there's nothing you can do with what I really felt toward you myBanako. I loveeee you way tooo much and I can't afford to lose you, never ever again. And what I felt for you is more than Jacob Black, Bella Swan or Edward Cullen love each other. It's more than anything else. I love you this ssoooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much. [ps: yaw lagi palabi sa gbati kulit...hahaha]


B, dili naman ni wish wui... hehehe.. just so you know that...

No one’s ever loved anyone as much as I love you.

mwaaaaaaaaahhhh.... iL0vey0us0muchmyBanako..

Happy advance birthday to you myBanako...

Hope to be with you sooner myBanako.. mwah..

L0ve L0ts,
kulit, your asawa

hoping, praying, wishing and looking forward to be with You again...

blog anniverssary....

I didn't noticed yesterday that it was our blog anniverssary..... whew!.. one year na d.ay ni atong blog myBanako.. and still, gamay2x rman tag na.post na memories...

dali rajd ang panahon myBanako noh?..pero, dugay cya if layo ka naq....dugay kaayo mahuman ang adlaw....

happy 1st anniverssary sa among blog... continue to store our memories for us to look back and reminisce someday when our hair turns grey and we have our grand little children on our side...

og bisan asa pa mi ma.abot pohon!... naa jpon ni nga blog...hehehehehhe....


to myBanako, i love you so much jpon... malayo or maduol....mwaaah...

18th wish: CONTINUE TO TRUST DESPITE AND IN SPITE WHAT HAD HAPPENED...

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18. CONTINUE TO TRUST DESPITE AND IN SPITE WHAT HAD HAPPENED...

I know, I know... I exactly know that our relationship have flaws regarding trusting each other. But it doesn't stop there, we can correct all things and its never too late to correct things. It doesn't mean that we are constant on things especially on that. Remember you once told before, everybody changes, right? Thus, we have a big space to change and a lot of time to change. We argue about it, we hated each other due to it but what is important, we learned from our mistakes, we grow up, we move on...

So, with my 18th wish do not let bad memories prevail but the good ones. The good ones and our plans in which sooner be fulfilled.

You once said, 'kulit, love tka mao nay timan.e og mao nay hunahuna way lain pah...' and so you should also start thinking that with my love for you myBanako...


I love you so much, I do.....

mwaaaaaaaaahhhh.... iL0vey0us0muchmyBanako..

Happy advance birthday to you myBanako...

Hope to be with you sooner myBanako.. mwah..

L0ve L0ts,
kulit, your asawa

hoping, praying, wishing and looking forward to be with You again...

17th wish: CONTINUE TO UNDERSTAND MY TANTRUMS...

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17. CONTINUE TO UNDERSTAND MY TANTRUMS...

Hahahay, I do have many tantrums og kaw ray rason nganong ma.trigger nah.. dli naman ni wishes B... hahaha..wish ni para naq naman dli para imo... hahaha..

Anyways, please do lengthen your patience and understanding. But eventually you already know the solution to each of the tantrums that you experienced. You already know how to stop my tantrum and make me calm. Og of course, dapat lng kai kaw rabay rason nganong mag.tantrums ko... hahaha...

I'm really such a spoiled brat, bwahehhe.. daddy, daddy.. hahhaha..

Kaw gd, kaw man jd maka.ingon ana akong mga tantrums. If you can just keep kanang pinaka.nahan naq nimo nga mg.cge ka char2x naq (nga imo ingon tinuod nah, dli rana char2x.. hehehehe)...I'll never have these tantrums...

If you can just keep my francis smile, the smile I know for me rajd, my francis mind, nga para ako rapd og my francis heart so there will be no reason at all for having those tantrums... hehehe

I still do love you so much, please do understand myBanako hap....mwaah..

I miss you and miss you so much.. never I day, I haven't think of You...

mwaaaaaaaaahhhh.... iL0vey0us0muchmyBanako..

Happy advance birthday to you myBanako...

Hope to be with you sooner myBanako.. mwah..

L0ve L0ts,
kulit, your asawa

hoping, praying, wishing and looking forward to be with You again...

When I'm With You...

Time to reminisce our songs....

Songs that are part of our journey...
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Songs that are witnessed on how we conquer each odds.....

Faber Drive - When I'm With You lyrics

Saw you walk in to the room
Thought i'd try to talk to you
Babe am i every glad you wanted me too
Its been two years to the day
half the time I've been away
i know I'm not there enough
but that is gonna change
cause I'm coming back
to show you that
I'm keeping the promise that i made

When i'm with you
I'll make every second count
cause i miss you, whenever your not around
when i kiss you
i still get butterflies
years from now
I'll make every second count
when I'm with you

yeah we've had our ups and downs
but we've always worked them out
babe am i ever glad we got this far now
still i'm lying here tonight
wishing i was by your side
cause when i'm not there enough
nothing feels right
so i'm coming back to show you that I'll love you the rest of my life

when i'm with you
I'll make every second count
cause i miss you, whenever your not around
when i kiss you
i still get butterflies
years from now
i'll make every second count
when i'm with you
when i'm with you

whatever it takes
im not gonna break the promise i made

when i'm with you
I'll make every second count
cause i miss you

when i'm with you
I'll make every second count
cause i miss you, whenever your not around
when i kiss you
i still get butterflies
years from now
i'll make every second count
when i'm with you
when i'm with you
when i'm with you
when i'm with you

We already heard the song before, way back 4th year college in his bhauz however, we never noticed that it has a nice lyrics. 'till one day, I think that was August 25, 2008 when we already know the result of the Board Passers for Nursing who took the exam last June 2008. That day, I went to their house to see the result and yepey, 10100 ESGUERRA, FRANCIS ANDRADE. After he let me see the result, I felt then scared because that is the go signal that we were waiting for that he will fly to NZ, the first plan was Australia but then, something went wrong I guess so it was then NZ. He then, sing me that song with his guitar and keep on repeating the line : " whatever it takes..im not gonna break the promise i made".

And what's my reaction?... hehehe....

I just cried my heart out... for I was touched for what he did and was also scared with the final decision that he will be part ways someday. He then, hug me so tight and keep on telling me 'iloveyou kulit'.. aah!!.. I miss you like crazy myBanako... hahaha.. simang....

Furthemore, we are now on the current situation and hoping that he will really fulfiill the line : .im not gonna break the promise i made.

Actually, right now I'm using the song as my ringtone.

i still love you so much myBanako, whether layo or duol. Love jd ayo tka.. mwaah..

iL0vey0usomuchmyBanako...mwaah

16th wish: CONTINUE TO TELL ME THOSE WORDS I WANNA HEAR FROM YOU....

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16. CONTINUE TO TELL ME THOSE WORDS I WANNA HEAR FROM YOU....

Below are randomly pick lines and also some of my favorite lines from our conversation. He sometimes tell me those words, if of course where in good terms og hhmmm... naka.tamak cguro og iti sa NZ nya nag.maayo ang buot.. hahaa, just kidding...

- i ask him onsa iyang wishes for his bday...

BbF: i wish ur here.. nothing else
BbF: i love you kulit..
BbF: kw rjd akong wish sa pgkakaron
BbF: di nko nhan mwala pka nko my asawa
BbF: till heaven wud take us my aswa

- randomly pick conversation we have last Sept. 9

BbF: bday nko rn nga month
kULiT: hehe
BbF: wa ka
BbF: huhuh
BbF: guol ko my aswa
BbF: mwah..
kULiT : lagi, it sad to know pd..
kULiT : ako pd gani..
BbF: oo
kULiT : ka.remember ko last year..
kULiT: hehe
kULiT : ka.remember paka?
kULiT : i was so hapi seing u so hapi wid wat i did
BbF: ako pd
kULiT : karon kabaliktaran pd.
BbF: happy mn jd bsta naa k my aswa
BbF: mwah.

BbF: i love you my asawa.
BbF: mwah


I can't help myself from smiling reading the conversation we have. I have actually a lot of save conversation's and text messages and letters from him.... And whenever, I miss him the most I scanned my notebooks, my scrapbooks and my emails just to read those messages he have for me. Since, before and till now, I keep on doing those especially if I have nothing much to do but just want to reminisce memories... I even have some rude text messages and emails from him, hehhehe.. pero those don't cout much... For what matter is "i love him much and he loves me much..."

iL0veyou so dearly myBanako...mwah...

mwaaaaaaaaahhhh.... iL0vey0us0muchmyBanako..

Happy advance birthday to you myBanako...

Hope to be with you sooner myBanako.. mwah..

L0ve L0ts,
kulit, your asawa

hoping, praying, wishing and looking forward to be with You again...

15th: CONTINUE TO THINK I'LL BE WITH YOU SOONER....

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15. The 15th of September, and CONTINUE TO THINK I'LL BE WITH YOU SOONER....

Dali.a ra sa panahon B wui, Sept. 15 nah... hapit na mg.October npd.. hehehe.. and this means myBanako, that a chance to be near you again, to be with you again, to subtract the nth days that we're not together and add to the sum of days or to the hopes that we will be in each other's arms again. Please do help me myBanako, on things that I really wanted to do especially the plans we have. Please....hehehe, ka.remember ko sa imong line nga: 'kaw jd kulit noh, desperada kaayo ka pero nahan koh...' hehehe....

I just want to be near or be with you again myBanako, this is what my heart long and desire each and every day... mwaaah..

iL0veyou so dearly myBanako...mwah...

mwaaaaaaaaahhhh.... iL0vey0us0muchmyBanako..

Happy advance birthday to you myBanako...

Hope to be with you sooner myBanako.. mwah..

L0ve L0ts,
kulit, your asawa

hoping, praying, wishing and looking forward to be with You again...

14th wish: DO ENJOY THINGS even without ME...

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14. DO ENJOY THINGS even without ME...

Yeah, I know this one. You can even live in a world without me.. ako rman ang dli, hehehe.. but anywayz, I'm happy to know you can just enjoy and live without me so that sooner or later if possibilities are really there dli naka mg.lisod pa... and ako nlang kai 'i will cross the brigde when I get there, but as what I said before. Once I cross the bridge it will be totally a different world when you're not part of it... All will be different but still be so glad and so thankful I oncepart of your world' if ever that happens...

whew, advance thought rajd ni myBanako.... but, I will surely be happy if you'll fulfill my 13th wish... more than happy myBanako... I still want us to fulfill the 13th wish....

And what I just want you to do is to : ENJOY, be SAFE, have clean plain FUN and do PRAY....

Wherever you are right now myBanako, I'm praying for your safety and others who's with you right now. Please do extra care because wla ta kahibaw sa lugar..

I'm crossing my fingers lng nga mo.txt ka ron... mwaaah....

DO ENJOY myBanako, mwaaah......

mwaaaaaaaaahhhh.... iL0vey0us0muchmyBanako..

Happy advance birthday to you myBanako...

Hope to be with you sooner myBanako.. mwah..

L0ve L0ts,
kulit, your asawa

hoping, praying, wishing and looking forward to be with You again...



ps: right now, nag.laag akong bana ron... to.a sa snow, can't remmeber the name of the place....
i always feels missing him so much if there are activities nga we can't be togeder.... huhuhuh

13th wish: DON'T EVER DARE LET ME GO...

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13. DON'T EVER DARE LET ME GO...

You once said this, and I'm telling you this from me to you. My 13th wish: DON'T YOU EVER DARE LET ME GO myBanako. No matter what happens, keep on holding me... Keep me so close... Don't ever lose your grip on me... Don't ever give up on on me, nor us...

I'm keeping your words, as much as I am keeping mine...

You once said, follow what my heart desires and so, I'LL NOT DARE LET YOU GO EITHER, for who I want is YOU... and that is what my heart truly desires. TO BE NEXT TO YOU in every SINGLE BREATH I TAKE...

iL0veyou so dearly myBanako...mwah...

mwaaaaaaaaahhhh.... iL0vey0us0muchmyBanako..

Happy advance birthday to you myBanako...

Hope to be with you sooner myBanako.. mwah..

L0ve L0ts,
kulit, your asawa

hoping, praying, wishing and looking forward to be with You again...

12th wish: CONTINUE TO BE PATIENT SA AKONG PG.KA SO CALLED : "KULIT"...

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12. CONTINUE TO BE PATIENT SA AKONG PG.KA SO CALLED : "KULIT"...

Did you ever regret you made me that nick myBanako?.... hehehe, very well, I'am well mould and well developed to be your only 'kulit'. No one ever can made such as kulit as I am without Francis in every step of the way. I'm like a spoiled brat and you were my so ever loving and caring daddy that you spoils me everything. But that was before, now you try to make me things that are way out of my limitations but still I understand you're helping me to be just as strong as you are. And still, my being pgka.kulit ruleszzz still hugry for everything you showed me and you taught me. Still thirsty with every single things you want me to learn. Very well, I understand things as much as I wanted you to understand things, the way I understand it.

Fortunately, I still have this so called attitude that you once put into me 'pagka.kulit jd'... hehehe.. I even can remember you once said, 'mypa dli nalng kulit akong g.tawag nimo dah, honey lng ta toh...' hahahaha...

Anywaysz myBanako, I'm loving every single changes I have for you. Every single changes that entitles me sooner to be yours and yours only.

iL0vey0usomuchmyBanako... mwaah...

mwaaaaaaaaahhhh.... iL0vey0us0muchmyBanako..

Happy advance birthday to you myBanako...

Hope to be with you sooner myBanako.. mwah..

L0ve L0ts,
kulit, your asawa

hoping, praying, wishing and looking forward to be with You again...

11th wish: LEARN TO FORGET AND FORGIVE...

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11. LEARN TO FORGET AND FORGIVE...

FORGET the hurtful things and FORGIVE those who hurt you and don't forget to pray for them. I also do this, you knew every bit or inch of me from the tip of my toe to the tip of a strand of my hair. You knew everything about me, good or bad and all the things that I went through. One good-but-not-so-good factor I have is FORGETTING THE PAST, you told me the word before 'repression'.

I am a repressionist, hmmm. am I using the right term? But anyways, yes I am like that. Right myBanako? You explained it to me very well before and after explaining what the word 'repression' means you just hug me so tight that what I did was close my eyes because all those are haunting me again but I'm not afraid anymore for I know you're with me.

Meaning of Repression:
Repression is the operation by which the subject repels and keeps at a distance from consciousness representations (thoughts, images, memories) that are disagreeable because they are incompatible with the ego.

link: http://www.answers.com/topic/repression

In relation to my 10th wish: LEARN TO FORGET or shall I say, can you repress those bad memories? Bad memories that will destroy you and me, will hurt your feelings and mine and will destroy our precious relationship. Can you? Please do try myBanako, I can't no longer dare to think next day, or next-next day or next month we will be arguing on the same bad things again.

Let's repress those things together. Okay?

mwaaaaaaaaahhhh.... iL0vey0us0muchmyBanako..

Happy advance birthday to you myBanako...

Hope to be with you sooner myBanako.. mwah..

L0ve L0ts,
kulit, your asawa

hoping, praying, wishing and looking forward to be with You again...

10th wish: CONTINUE ON HOW OFTEN YOU KEEP IN TOUCH...

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10.CONTINUE ON HOW OFTEN YOU KEEP IN TOUCH...

MyBanako, I really appreciate your efforts. Bisan og onsa na nga time diha but still you never miss nga mo.keep in touch. And it makes me so extra special. Please don't change that, I really do like how often you keep in touch with me. It makes me forget kadyot the loneliness I felt, especially when makamata ko nga kaw g.pokaw naq sa uzzap... hehehe... It makes me extra super special jd...

So, with my 10th wish: CONTINUE ON HOW OFTEN YOU KEEP IN TOUCH...

You just don't know kapila ko mg.cge check sa uzzap to know if online ka or dli....hehehe. not just 20 times or 50 times, every minute man guro mg.cge ko check uzzap just to check if online ka or dili.... hehehe..

Please don't change that myBanako hap... and please do keep it up...

I will be waiting for you each and every day, or every minutes to talk with you 'til I will be next to you or be with your arms again....

I will be waiting for you... mwah... I miss you so much...mwah..

Happy advance birthday to you myBanako...

Hope to be with you sooner myBanako.. mwah..

L0ve L0ts,
kulit, your asawa

hoping, praying, wishing and looking forward to be with You again...

9th wish: DO ALWAYS THINK : 'THE LAW OF ATTRACTION'...

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9. DO ALWAYS THINK : 'THE LAW OF ATTRACTION'...

There's this one special guy who once said 'LAW OF ATTRACTION kulit. Think what your heart desires and nothing else don't be distracted on the hard things nor the trials but think that you can fulfill and will reach all your goal and all you want to achieve. You can reach what your heart desires.' not really the right words though but I expounded it.

myBanako, I cling to that statement 'LAW OF ATTRACTION KULIT' and never ever open to possibilities or consider you out of my life though I might cross the bridge when I get there. However, my life will never be the same if you're not part of it.

Furthermore, this is my 9th wish that I want you to have. You told me about it before and this time its my turn to tell you...

' LAW OF ATTRACTION myBanako... Trust me, this works. Cling to what you really want, set your mind to what you wanted to happen with your life, focus on your goals, reach your dreams and follow what your heart desires. Consider trials as a challenge and it will just flow away and make you stronger. Do rememmber myBanako, follow what you heart desires and apply with it the Law of Attraction.

Happy advance birthday to you myBanako...

Hope to be with you sooner myBanako.. mwah..

L0ve L0ts,
kulit, your asawa

hoping, praying, wishing and looking forward to be with You again...

8th wish: CONTINUE TO MAKE ME BLUSH and SHOWING HOW MUCH YOU CARE...

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8. CONTINUE TO MAKE ME BLUSH and SHOWING HOW MUCH YOU CARE...

give me a chance myBanako, I'm making this wishes... hehehe... yeah!... you read it right, CONTINUE TO MAKE ME BLUSH, continue to let me feel beautiful each day and continue me to let me feel loved.... in short, e.continue nang cgeg char2x nimo...hehehehe..joksz!

Bitaw, back to my business... continue letting me feel I am love by you myBanako, for it always makes my day. An 'i love you' a day makes the worries away and makes my day.

Happy advance birthday to you myBanako...

Hope to be with you sooner myBanako.. mwah..

L0ve L0ts,
kulit, your asawa

hoping, praying, wishing and looking forward to be with You again...

7th wish: MARK YOUR WORDS...

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7. MARK YOUR WORDS...

MARK YOUR WORDSSSsssss... dili kai mo ana ka nga "dili na kulit" pero jpon d.ay toh, in the end...mao jpon buhaton!.. nangasaba bah myBanako.. well, it's true... How many times you told me nga "dli na kulit" then wla jpon, how many times mo ana kah "mo.comment ka nig off" pero wla jpon d.ay... hehehe...

Sometimes, I'm afraind believing things you told me because you did not make it to the point nga you'll do the things that you said. But it doen't change anything 'ibog jpon ayo ko nimo' wish lng ko ma.change ka ana... hehehe bisaya wui!...

gihigugma tika pag.ayo myBanako!.. mwah... og gimingaw njd kaayo ko nimo!...

ikaw ra ang bugtong itik nga g.kapa2x sa akong doghan!... hehehe..

mwaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...

Happy advance birthday to you myBanako...

Hope to be with you sooner myBanako.. mwah..

L0ve L0ts,
kulit, your asawa

hoping, praying, wishing and looking forward to be with You again...

6th wish : DONT GIVE UP, KEEP FIGHTING with HOPE...

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6. DONT GIVE UP, KEEP FIGHTING with HOPE...


"When things went wrong never suggest of letting go coz it's just a little reminder that this time you should hold on MORE..."

sounds familiar myBanako? Letme try to repharse it using my own set of words but having the same thoughts... hehehe...

It's like saying, NEVER GIVE UP when tough times comes. Keep FIGHTing till you get what your heart desires and simply do HOPE that everything will turn out alright.

sakto ba ang thought myBanako? hehehe.. connected still with my 5th wishes,rayt?

I love you so much myBanako. My 6th wish please, please I know we have issues, a lot actually and it keeps on ruining our relationship every now and then when we remember those by our freaking minds and missing-so-much-each-other-feeling. Nevertheless, I know will not let go for we both love each other. Keep holding the bond myBanako, the rope which connects me to you. The path which I know will meet our ways. Keep holding on my hand, my heart and my soul.

I love you so much still myBanako, despite the imperfections we have. It doesn't matter, for I am perfectly so much in love with you.

Happy advance birthday to you myBanako...

Hope to be with you sooner myBanako.. mwah..

L0ve L0ts,
kulit, your asawa

hoping, praying, wishing and looking forward to be with You again...

5th wish: STAND STILL and STAY STRONGER esp. with the tough times.

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5. STAND STILL and STAY STRONGER esp. with the tough times.

Whew!... when tough times occurs OMG you always make me freak out. I know your stronger than me, your much controlled than me, you have more than anything in the world than me, plus you have me.... hahahaha... But the things you once said doesn't make you stronger for it surely shows off how coward you were that you throw all those painful, harsh and out of this world words at me... ouch!.. those hurts epecially when its you who said those but I know you didn't mean it because you were just angry. and.... it's bad myBanako..... right? do you agree with me?.... its better to put your hands on me than say those words for words once said are really hard to forget. But anyways, my whole point is you are already strong please keep it up but just change some perspective like the way you show me how strong you are through those words. It's not right.

Is this a wish? hehehe.. yeah, for helping you come back to once you said you were a good person and I r****d it. Your always a good person to me, you never changed. I always love the way and who you are and I am continue feeling this way loving you till the end, till eternity it takes.... hehehehe *kulit giggles*...hehehehe

I love you more than anyone love someone so much in the history of the world and I love you more than you ever know....ggrrr, yaw palabi kulit sa imong gbati... hahahaha..... i know!. i just can't help it..

Happy advance birthday to you myBanako...

Hope to be with you sooner myBanako.. mwah..

L0ve L0ts,
kulit, your asawa

hoping, praying, wishing and looking forward to be with You again...

quick post.... i miss you...

out nami!.. hapit lng.. hahay, i hate dis feeling.. mood swings.. and way too emotional karon!.. ambot lng.. Mood swigs lng jd... girly thing!.. huhuhuhu... i wanna cry... akong doghan mobuto na sa kamingaw sa isa ka tao.. i hate having this thing every month it always makes me weaker kai mg.mood swings ko.. too emotional raba kaayo jd koh!.. huhuhu....

nag.ka.chat mi kadyot niha!... karon natog na cya... and i asked him nga...

kULiT: do you miss me?
BbF: i miss u smch more dan d world cud comprehend my asawa..

huhuhuhuh.... i missing him so much and much more jd myBanako..mwaaah..

mwaaah..

hope to be with u so soon.......

uli naq!.. hapit2x lng..mwaaah....

4th wish: PRAY ALWAYS or as OFTEN...

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4. PRAY ALWAYS or as OFTEN...

Every now and then, this is one of the best thing that I cling on, this will calm me and will keep my sanity. And After I woke up, before going to bed, upon riding a jeep on my way to work, after work, before duty starts and before doing anything. I randomly pick prayers from my thought though it doesn't show it and each prayers I made I never miss a single part with you in it esp. the times when were not in good terms. I hold still with my faith in Him and with US that everything will turn out alright.

So for my 4th wish : PRAY ALWAYS or as OFTEN...

I know it doesn't necessarily mean you'll have to pray the rosary as often as you pray. But at least, talk to HIM and say your own thought together with a prayer and surely eventhough how freak your mind is it will help you calm and think of not the bad things but the good things.

Pray for your safety myBanako, for your health, for all the things you achieved, for your family, for your safe drive on way to work, bsta pray myBanako.... for everthing else... mwaaah..


Happy advance birthday to you myBanako...

Hope to be with you sooner myBanako.. mwah..

L0ve L0ts,
kulit, your asawa

hoping, praying, wishing and looking forward to be with You again...

3rd wish: BE HEALTHY and DON'T DARE GET SICK...

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3. BE HEALTHY and DON'T DARE GET SICK...

You must comply this one also. I need you to have a GOOD HEALTH just like being safe you must and need to have this one. Yaw pabaya ntawn, eat balance diet yaw ntawn permiha ang noodles lng, eat right & healthy foods (balance diet foods), drink plenty of water, get right sleep. Get rest pd ntawn myBanako, yaw palabi ayo sa work. Have fun pd and enjoy life, my wishes connect someway in one another, kbntay ka B?.... from being healthy to being safe and being happy....

This is an order myBanako hap, you must jd nih.. hehehe.. kai I need you ntawn and I can't take a though nga there's something ma.happen nimo diha nga wla ko... it will surely freak me out.. so, please don't get me so worried... k?

Maybe the best sentence that will describe my 3rd wish is: Have a happy, unrisky and healthy lifestyle... whew!

Happy advance birthday to you myBanako...

Hope to be with you sooner myBanako.. mwah..

L0ve L0ts,
kulit, your asawa

hoping, praying, wishing and looking forward to be with You again...

2nd wish: BE SAFE...

2. BE SAFE...

We know for the fact with our current situation right now. We're way too miles, oceans or country apart. No one is there for you except for your newly found friends or shall I say new found family with jong, sookie, kuya tony boy. I'm not there nor your family so my 2nd wish is

I need you to be safe. No prerequisite. What you need to do is to be SAFE...




[whew!... bryta naq wui, bright or nangita lng jd og way... hahaha.. i took the pics again using printscreen function sa keyboard and too bad kai akong g.rentan nga net kai wlai ms paint...huhuuh.. but i found ms word, aha!.. hehehe..d light bulb ni.siga, so i went on paste those printscreened pics and the problem after was, how will i made it into a .jpeg... since akong bana naa lakaw mg.soroy2x daw kai off niya..den ako den 12pm ang duty.. so i went off to work and pg.abot sa work.. hehehe..ayg saba!.. ngita ko way how to make the pics nga mga .jpeg and viola!!!.. weeee..... tn.awa ang pics na .jpeg na cya....hehehe.. bsta taas ayo ang process on how i made it nga na .jpeg cya.. ang importante, i got what i wanted and it all turn out well... love it!!.. hehehehe


[pics was taken a while ago, hehehe.. mao ni cya ko g.sugo nga paduolon sa monitor para mokiss.. hehehee]


I need you to be safe in whatever you do, where you are. Be safe always ntawn myBanako and expect me to do the same. Be in a safe place with safe inviduals or group. Don't just trust someone directly. Pray to God always for guidance.

Be safe intawn, as what you said before.. "i need a wife, dli asawa nga mag.risk sa iyang self' ... Well then, "i need you... i need a husband who is you", please intawn be safe...

Be safe esp. when your driving. Remember the stop, look and go cgnal on traffic lights. Your speed don't way to as in pas-pas kaayo ang dagan. ok? mura man ko mama ani nimo wui? hehehe..

bsta just be safe ntawn myBanako..mwaah...

Happy advance birthday to you myBanako...

Hope to be with you sooner myBanako.. mwah..

L0ve L0ts,
kulit, your asawa

hoping, praying, wishing and looking forward to be with You again...

1st wish : HAPPINESS...

1st day of 'ber-months', 1st day of September and 1st day of his special month....

It's already the 'ber-months' and Christmas is just around the corner. I woke up a while ago and what I heard from radio stations are Christmas songs and it makes me smile wondering I'll be with him sooner...

And before we celebrate Christmas there is this another event that I will not surely forget and will not surely want to miss...


[g.chat mi niha, mao ni ang pics i took from printscreen fuction sa keyboard... hehehe...]


His birthday.... it's just around the corner... weee...

but soo sad, his in NZ and me and his family are here in Pinas.

Daahh let's not think about it, what matters is sooner I will be or his family will be with him....

More importantly, I'll be giving him wishes each and every day in his special month. It's not like before when the 1st of Sept. comes I already have 30 paper balloons that I will give to him each day with my messages... hehehe... I miss those old times.

I was actually finding a sheet of paper where he wrote his 30 wishes before. I did not lost it, but I gave it to him when he went to NZ including with some stuffs came from me and the ring I wore for about 2 years which he gave it on my 18th birthday. I wished I could have copy it first before I gave it to him, so that I can post it on our blog.


Let's now proceed to my 1st birthday wish....



1. HAPPINESS...

Wherever you are, whatever you do, whoever your with please be happy... For I will be happy knowing your happy. Your happiness means so much to me, for it will brighten my day with the happiness you brings.

I know what your heart desires and what will make you so happy... but right now, please be happy for I know sooner everything will turn out alright and what matters is "i L0ve you so much"... mwah.

If I haven't told you before, well it's time to let you know that... nothing means more to me than You and your happiness...

iL0vey0usomuchmyBanako.. and never a day I haven't think about you with me...

Happy advance birthday to you myBanako...

Hope to be with you sooner myBanako.. mwah..

L0ve L0ts,
kulit, your asawa

hoping, praying, wishing and looking forward to be with You again...


ps: ako ona mo.greet jd nimo B.. way too advance ra ayo ko greetings jd...hehhehe..