Happy 98th!!!

Happy Monthsarry BB!

It's been 98th months!!! 98 months together working out our relationship.

This month or year is another Chapter of our lives. For 98 months, we've seen a lot of changes as in a lor especially that we're both living in one roof. I've seen who really are you. I've seen how you get so excited about a thing, how you deal with everyone, how you think with a particual situation, how you get oh so freaking mad, I've seen how you always love cuddlesssss and hugggssss.I've seen how you dance when your drunk. I've seen how you sleep(oh! my weakness) you look like.

You may have changes that still right now I'm having hard time accepting it, but I know it's really a good change. It's a better-confident YOU. I'm just too selfish to accept you already go out from your shell exploring all things beautfiul/wonderful. Pls, yaw ntawng nang beautiful girls hap and please put some limitations ntawn, yaw palabi esp. sa you-know nah. okay???You're no longer a stranger to me even few months back, but now that I got to know all those things, I can help but smile at times coz those things amazes me. At times out of the blue, you just surprisingly surprise me with what you do and I love how you do that.

Bb, im reminiscing our memories on our blog right now. And I realized we've been thru a lot. We encouter the ups and the downs many times and over and over again. But we never seem to let go, although at times, we can feel giving up our precious relationship, tired feeling and tried deciding letting go (I guess, its just natural) but we never did. We always tried our best to work out things, esp. US, and that's one thing I'm so

 proud of with US.

Bb, now that you know me more coz we're living together. I would like to apologize for every single bad things that I did. For hurting you at times, for blaming you at times, for not understanding you at times, for being soooooo selfish, for not respecting you whenever I feel mad at you, for being such a gahig-ulo-nga-gf.Pasayloa ko Bb!

Bb, I love you. Love man tka, "si bb cutecute lab man nako." hehehe I can't help but smile at you when you say this line. Sometimes it annoys me but most of the time it made me smile.Trying to make childish voice but you soound so cute and adorbs. Please don't ever change that Bb.

Bb, thank you so much. Again and again, for accepting me. For taking care of me. For telling me honestly what I need to change. For telling the truth though sometimes slap is much better than hearing those, but I appreciate it you let me know. Thank you for trying your best every day, everyday ba bb? heheheh trying your best to make me happy. Thank you for making me happy. Thank you for not giving up, for still holding my hands esp. those times when things gets rough. Thank you for spending time with me, or squeezzzing me in your schedule. Thank you as well for cooking dinner sometimes, when I get lazy. Thank you for understanding me. Thank you for everything Bb.

And Thank you for loving me.

Happy Monthsarry!!!

Happy 78th monthsarry myBanako!

'FATE is building a bridge of chance for the one you love'

You're 4511 miles (flying distance) apat from me, but I still love you sooo much...

Happy 78th monthsarry to my one and only!

It's been how many months passed already but nothings change. I still love you so much and fall inlove with you all over again. We had misunderstandings, a lot of it, that due to this distance thing it's so hard to really understand each other. You made me freak out at times. You made me cry so hard at times as well. But those doesn't really matter. For I am so unbelievably in love with you.

Our relationship is far from perfect, but nevertheless, the love we have for each other is the strongest thing I’ve ever felt, and you never stop fighting for me. I thank you for that, you really do save me on a daily basis.

Letting myself love you was the best thing I ever did. I'll keep on fighting. I'll keep you by my side. I'll never let go of the grip. I'll hold you close here in my heart.

iloveyousomuchmyBanako... mwahhh...

Thank you for letting me feel beautiful.

Happy 78th monthsarry myBanako!

Happy 77th monthsarry to myBanako!....

Happy 77th monthsarry!

MyBanako, you're the reason that keeps me going. No matter how tough my day is, there is this particular time of the day that made me happy and look forward to each day that is seeing you though it means only on skype. It doesn't matter though. Nothing changes but can't deny that I miss you sooo much and I so wanna be with you every single day of my life.

I wanna thank you myBanako for still there with me, fighting throughout this journey. You never leave me despite I know how hard and difficult it is for us. You're there continue to teach and inspire me on what life brings and on what life ahead of us. Thank you for the efforts on showing how much you care for me though I know how difficult it is for you because of the distance, I knew it too well 'coz I'm in it as well.

Happy 77th monthsarry myBanako! I know we can get through this. And there will be that one special time or day that will reunite us and will never ever get separated again.

Nothings change, it's just I miss you so much, this is the only difference.

[TRUE LOVE doesn't mean being inseparable; it means being separated and nothing changes.]

[a quote made by him one time when I asked him to. :)]

iloveyousomuchmyBanako...mwaah

Happy 77th monthsarry!

Love Lots,

kulit, your asawa

looking forward, praying, hoping to be with you again. :)

Happy 77th monthsarry to myBanako!....

I love you so much still..... I'll just update my message tomorrow. Super sleepy and super tired and busy earlier. Whew!

Anyhow, before this night ends. I still wanna shout to the world that "i love you myBanako" and i miss you sooo much....

We can get through this....mwaah

Hope to see you soon, thanks for the poem B.mwah

update: got finished with my room and editing the pictures. Below are the pictures.

this is what my room wall looks like. i lurrrveee it much. :)

[the teddy bear got a name, He is "BbF" or I call him with his nick at times "Antet". He has a mission in life and it's all written on that piece of paper which I keep it for years already and in which he already know what he's for. :) keep the good job Antet. xoxoxo. The heart beside him, is given by his master, the same guy who bought Antet for me. She is "BIG HEART". We call her that way for she's so big. LOL. She's my companion at night and the one who comfort me as well when there master is not around. Especially in times like this. They brought happiness to me and of course, their master who brought so much joy and love to me.]

[the quote is made by him. I actually asked him one time. :D]

Happy 77th monthsarry myBanako!

Wheeeww! Viollllaaaaaaaaaaa... This is what my wall room looks like. I got so envied with one of the tumbler blog I follow. The Home Sweet Home blog, in which randomly there are images of a room that has pictures posted in walls, everywhere and frames. Thus, I decided to make one of my own for our 77th monthsarry. I was busy yesterday for my TOR in which I follow up at my school and went after to SM to just stroll and hang around. Oopppss! I need to finished this because there's something important I need to make today. Lazy kulit! Anyhow, how do you find my room wall? Isn't it cute and nice and full of lovey-doveyy... hhahahaha... I know he will complain about this again, like my mom who's first words she said "what happen to your wall..." LOL. I superrr love it. I don't care. It's my room. badd cheettah . As long as I don't hurt anyone and as long as I'm happy with what I'm doing well, yeahhh I'll go for it. Thus, this made my day so happy plus seeing him earlier before he went off to work. Yaaayyy so much! *insert face with utmost glee*

To myBanako, your message is on the next post because I know you'll complain again that I don't have something for you. hahaha and I know it's true that you complain, you just don't want to accept it. *winks

Anyhow, I love you sooo much myBanako.

Happy 77th monthsarry!

Wish you're here next to me right now. I wanna be with you sooner. :)

I Remember

It was a rainy evening when all you did was to weep in tears

Rain drops fell and no one else did hear

Broken young heart seeking to get fixed

What to do? love again and be ditched?

Yesterday I saw you seems nothing's queer

I insanely admire your beautiful face

But how do I get rid of this fear?

Could I just hold you without anything to say?

I love you is all I need to utter

Oh please cupid shoot me with your arrow of beer

Being giddy doesn't even matter

As long as at the end I can lean on your shoulder

A day I woke up with you in my arms

Is it a dream or only created  by my foolish mind?

Yes it's true! pinch me then I'll know

If not then one truth I have in heart I do always love you

I'm almost complete 'till we got separated

It's been a while since we actually dated

Memories I recall whenever I miss you

Still a sparkling smile when I think of what we've been through.

-BbF

P.S.

Wish I could be next to you very soon.

Happy Monthsarry. I love u so much.

a rainy morning

I'm super busy this past few weeks. Preparing evidences here and there, processing documents here and there, thinking how to do this and that, money maattersss, plus time and efforts... Whew! It's just a busy month for me. I just woke up and the first thought came in my mind is : MISSING HIM darn much! as he was still the last thing I have in mind when I went to sleep at 12mn last night. It's been over a year and few months passed, nothing's change that much. I'm still head over heels in love with him. I just can't take that thought ooutta of this head. I'm missing him, every single day. I pray sooner, I pray and wish and hope that soonerrr, very soooner I'll be with him...

For pictures of this post, I decided I'll post what I did yesterday. Two days RD and just spendin it at home, waiting for him and being with him. I was busy with my scrapbook yesterday, so here are some glimpse of it.

These are some of the pages I have with my scrapbook, quite messy but everything that ties the two of us, our memories that we wanted to reminisce and every time spend before are there. One witnessed how insanely sanely in love I am with him. :D

Happy 76th monthsarry myBanako!

Happy 76th monthsarry myBanako!

iloveyousooooomuch still.. mwaaahhhhhhhhhhhh.... 

Is so busy on paper works this past few weeks and thus, upload some random edited picture before. However, it doesn't change anything. I'm so much still in love with him. We were able to saw each other in Skype and talked about things, though I was kinda moddddyy can't tell the reason. But! yeah, I was darn so moddy on our monthsarry but he was able to made me smile.The same guy who made me madly fall in love all over again.

Nothing's change myBanako. I love you to death. and I wanna be with you soooonnnnnn....

iloveyousomuchmyBanako..mwaah… ♥♥♥

Love finds a way...

"I love you and I always will..." , got the message in the card that was slip in the boquet.

Here are the pictures I took last night after I received the bouquet. Weeeee!!!

Thank you so much to myBanako, who set up this for me. You never fail to make me happy. Yaaay!!!... you made me fall in love with you again. xoxoxox

iloveyousomuchmyBanako..mwaah… ♥♥♥

ps: I was just using my phone in taking the pics so that explains the low quality of the images.  :(

Happy 75th monthsarry myBanako!!!!

Happy 75th monthsarry myBanako!!!!....

Made a pictotext before fixing myself to work and before Skype got disconnected. The pictotext is for our 75th monthsarry. 

"The reason it hurts so much to separate (distance) because our SOULS ARE CONNECTED."

So, there.... We dated the whole day and talked anything under the sun. He made my day so perfectly wonderful. Haaay, I wished sooner I'll be with him. And the next time, well celebrate our monthsarry I'm next to him, sitting beside him, laughing, smiling....

By the way, I'm still surprised and speechless right now. What really happened is: 

I arrived in the office at exactly 9:10 PM, Phils. time and when elevator opens guard gave me a receipt for a bouquet of flower and a big box of toblerone, which was placed on the bench in the lobby. I received a bouquet of flower with a dozen roses in it and a big box of Toblerone. Weeeee!!! I was surprised and speechless, really. I even asked the guard, if it’s really for me. He said, if you’re Cristy then it’s for you… hahahahah….

Anyways, myBanako… THANK YOU SOOOO MUCH…. YOU made my day wonderful earlier, now YOU made my night again. I’m happy myBanako, but I will surely be much happier if you’re the one, personally who gave it to me.

Thank you & thank you sooo much....

Happy 75th monthsarry myBanako!

Happy 75th monthsarry myBanako!!!!

Not enough time to make picto text for our 75th monthsarry. So browse for pics from Ace, and find this pic. He edited it so, credits go to myBanako…. hehehehe….

Through it all myBanako, I still love you soooo much..mwaahh..

Happy 75th monthsarry myBanako…mwaaah…

iloveyousomuchmyBanako..mwaah… ♥♥♥

OBSESSION or PASSION?

I never though this would come up in my always in love mind. :)

Just this day, a question pop up in my mind like those ads in the internet shouting to you ANOOOUNNCEEEMENNTTTT!!! Thus, the question is : OBSESSION or PASSION?

I then call the every bff's of all , Mr google. Search for any possible information that will somehow clear my mind into these two things. I'm afraid being obsessed. But definitely, proud to be passionate. I don't wanna be obsessed with anything or anyone. I don't want to have that impression that I'm obsessed with such a thing or person. It makes me think bad, idk maybe simple because of the word 'obsess'. Any how, let's try to check those terms.

Start off with ,  

Obsess: Mr. Answers simply answers: To preoccupy the mind of excessively/to dominate the mind or thoughts of. 

Passion: still from Mr. Answers says: A powerful emotion, such as love, joy, hatred, or anger/the object of such love or desire.

Upon knowing the two definitions, it then made me think I'm obsessed and somehow passionate. Is there such a thing as good obsession? harhar As that's what I like to think about on what I feel now. A good obsession, well, if there's no such thing as that. I'll just made it up. hehehe Ok,  yeah! I admit I'm obsessed. There are lot of things actually, from photography, dresses, heels, foods, quotes, pinks, blacks, Jacob, Bella, Edward, Tricia, Crissey, hahahahaha I'll just add them, they inspire me. what else? more, there are more things that I can hardly remember that I can say I'm obsessed with. I'm obsessed with love, romantic love, to forever. But one thing, that made me worried is the obsession of him. When your obsess about something, you cannot stop thinking about it and you cannot think about anything else, this is just a simply proof that I have obsession with him. A good obsession though, aaahhmmm maybe there's this bad obsession or anything you can tag it with the word obsession.

Nevertheless, when passion sits in. Now I'm blocked and don't know what to write. bwaaaahhhhhhhhhh What I think when passion sits in is : I love having him to love. I love spending each of my days with him. I love smiling and laughing with him. I simply love knowing his worried when I'm sad for that made me fine as well. I love writing every thing that happen to us in our online diary may it be bad or good or naughty or anything. I love reminiscing every memories with him. "I love I have this obsession with him." hahahaha, now that made me though. Well, I discovered what my passion is. 6 years, 2 months and 11 days to be exact. I'm just passionately in love with him and also glad that I have this good obsession of him I just can't get him off my mind not a single minute.

haay, I should be sleeping by now 'coz I still have work at night. It's just those 2 bold words struck me earlier. wt! So, well.............. I need to kick of my a** here and start sleeping. hehehehe

Oppps, I forget for Difference between OBSESSION and PASSION, click here. I stumble upon it earlier while searching for obsession and passion.

nytieee! everyone........

iloveyousomuchmyBanako..mwaah... ♥♥♥

couple stuffs

Posting couple stuff's. Before heading out to sleep. Finally, these two stuffs he already received it. He received it last January 20, 2010. Nothing's change still. I'm still amazed with each couple stuffs and for buying things for him or for US. 888D

iloveyousomuchmyBanako..mwaah... ♥♥♥

Day of hearts

Day of hearts with the man who means everything to me. 

Spendin' time with Kit & Ton2x at SM, Greenwich satisfying our stomach for lasagna with starbucks mocha frap with mint. I'm happy to have them as friends to date with especially on hearts day. teeheee. But, the most special part of the day, is when I got to see him, captured every moments with him & spend my time talking to him though it means seeing him on Skype  & talking with him on YM only.

I'm in SM while his in Ate Rhol's house in NZ. We might be on two different worlds at that time, two different places that I'm unknown where the heck Ate Rhol's house is, but we're creating the same memories on that same hour at that very moment in which I'm thankful of also, for I go to spend the day of hearts with him.

iLOveyOusomuchmyBanako…mwaaahh.. i’m missing you sooooo much.

Hearts Day!!!

Made this yesterday, after we talked in Skype & YM . He was so sleepy, after he arrived from work and his net connection is so slow for his on dial up 'coz hurot na ang storage for his net. Decided to made this one for Hearts Day.

Happy Heart's Day to you myBanako!!!! mwaaah.. "A hundred hearts would be too few. To carry all my love for you... mwaaah "

iL0veyousomuchmyBanako...mwaaah..

belated 73rd monthsarry

I was putting a pic of our new couple shirt on the side bar & then, remembered that we had actually took pics of it after he received it last Jan 20, 2010 , in time for our 73rd monthsarry. It took 8 months after finally, he have it. So here is our pic, actually made it as our profile pic on our FB accounts, profile pic for my twitter and four our blog. yayyyyy!!! <3<3<3

After, we talked on Skype here is what I've done. I had photo bomb with the message I put on the cardboard. You can check it here: 1 , 2 , 3 , there are actually 3 posts. So there you go....

I miss you so much. I wanna be with you sooner myBanako.... mwaaah...

iL0veyousomuchmyBanako, I'll meet you in dreamland. nyt2x!

Love stood still

Love stood still
Movin’ us together
Love stool still
Leading us towards each other
Now we’re back at the start
‘Coz while we were apart
Love stood still

wait for you...

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do I'll wait for you

Thank you....

 

Photo Credit : Thank You

I just wanted to say "Thank You" to the same guy who let me fall inlove all over again.

It's nice being happy. It's nice how happiness just rule your entire system. No worries, no problems. Hakuna Matata!!! free from all worries....that's what happiness brings me today.

 ...

I woke up around 5:55pm earlier. Tried to do things, post process pictures but can't finish it or I don't have the urge to finish it. Getting lazy I guess & was having a head ache. Tried to take some nap but my mind is preoccupied.

Og g.brown.out!!! haaaayyyyyyy........

So decided to just wake up, eat dinner, take a bath and about to prepare myself  for work. When I then feel, this emotional depression thinggy again. I share to my journal the feeling however, crashed it all out and write instead happy moments. I don't want to feel sad anymore. I just wanted to be happy. So I should start the night right, but still can't deny that even though I wrote happy thoughts and things in my journal my face brings the opposite of it. I lay in my room for a couple of minutes, staring at the ceiling blankly, blink my eyes 'til then I noticed  moist running out both from my eyes down to my cheek!!! arggggh!!! not again... kapoia njd wui!!! My face is so gloomy as I step outside from my room and I'm so irritated and all. I can't even dare a smile. I was confused and lost again. haaay, the never ending confusion and getting lost of myself. My mom and my sister can't even talk to me without me getting irritated.

My sister ask : "g.away npd mo?"
Ako : wla man!!!!....
Her: cge kag in.ana mo tigowang kah!!!
Ako: no comment!!! 

but I'm thankful that there's no electricity for my eyes are getting moist again. For what I really felt is missing someone so much, needing him beside me right at that very moment. I so wanted to share to them, how hard it is but decided not to and keep it to myself and pretend to be irritated and all....

As I was about to go outside and on my way to work...og sa dihang ni cga btaw ang suga!!!!..hahahaha... then, that's how my happy moment started. I then, went back to my room. Boot ACE and connect to net then 1.2.3. I'm ONLINE in YM & SKYPE.... and got to see him... hhaaaaaaaayyyyyy!!!! *sigh

Even I know, I'll be late at work but I still have the chance to be with him for just 10 mins. 10 mins that entirely change my mood. From gloomy face to giving my best smile. No pretensions. I was able to give my best smile and really felt light. I felt so happy. Happy that he's there with me. Happy that somehow he felt that I need him that I need him for me to give my best smile. So, happy in love. And here I go again, falling all over again to the same guy. I'm so happily in love with him. haaaay B wui, love au tka og mingaw na au ko nmo...

So I was late for work 7mins late to be exact, but happily in love. & wanted to say "Thank you a million times myBanako for bringing the best out of me especially my smile"...

iL0vey0usomuchmyBanako..mwaaah.....

I miss you so much myBanako..mwaaah..

Journey of one's self...

“nothing is worth having if it comes so easy...” 

The journey of one's self...

Last night, I was on SL due to personal reason. And  I'm needing him that much. I need him to stay longer & talk to me or if possible have a lil chit-chat with corny jokes for really I'm feeling so lonely even I was just at home. I was begging him to stay longer but he need to sleep for it's almost 1am in his end. It's not like in the Phils. that it's just 8 in the evening.

This is one hell adjustment of LDR. When you need your partner in your side to comfort you and feel his warmth hug and cuddles. I know it's not possible but at least he was there talking to me on skype.

I was having hard time to sleep, to deal with the loneliness, to deal with my emotions. I need him that much last night but it should not continue for I know my life is not about dealing with all the emotions in the world. My life has to deal with all other things in which I need to face it with chin-up.

Last night, before my subconscious eats my whole system and take me to my dreamland, where me lying or cuddling in his arms. I then recall, the plans I had before. I remembered that I wanna do it, one day. Like, go to familiar places, common places we used to date. Where we used to create memories or reminisce memories. Where we can just be ourselves, no worries, no problems and nothing to think about than just the two US spending each moments of our life.

Thus, I wanna conquer the biggest fear of my life. Being ALONE, going to places that reminds me of him and tearing/killing/drowning myself to loneliness 'til I'm getting used to it that I can leave by the pain that brought with it. Plus without telling anyone, not even Him. Before I think of this, but so scared to do it alone, for I don't know how, what will I do or what shall I feel. But as I wake up this morning, there's this urge to do it. To conquer this, to face everything alone, to keep running in comforting myself when he's not there to comfort me.

I was doubtful early this morning that I can do it. It was so difficult to step outside from our house and go where my feet will take me. It was hard to think that I know he's not waiting to any place I have in mind which I want to go. But still I wanted to go. The urge was stronger. The need was stronger. So I step out of the house and thinking : give yourself a break kulit. You know you can. Be free from all worries and lets go, will have a date.

Yeaaaahh!!!.... I was scared at first for thinking what shall I do? Where should I go first? But, weeeee..... there I go, free as a bird, riding jeepney's to and fro. Unwinding myself, which means to me finding familiar places which will remind me of him. Which I know that he exist, that we exist before on those places.

Time Started: 10 am... this is it kULiT!!!

First stop : Visit close person in our hearts.

Got to visit my papa, my lola & lolo, his lolo as well.

plus: hapit2x sa kilid!!!...

Before heading North, LUNCH TIME AT Jobi Lilo-an...

Second stop: Got to visit the place where we spend our first months, monthsarries,birthdays, anniversaries or any random dates or occasions. The original place where we love star gazing but too bad, can't do star gazing for I know I can't be home too late still have duty tonight.

Third stop: Got to visit where we usually love star gazing  2nd place where we love to hang out and just hang out anytime of the day usually after class during college days. huhuhuhu, I really miss this one... star gazing and tsecrettt... hehehe

Time Ended: 4:45 pm... happy to go home!!!!

Whew, what a day I had earlier. And it's nice to know that I was able to made it, without crying my heart out. I simply just spend my day unwinding especially on the third place where I miss the most. Where I got to let all my fears out, all bad thoughts and keep myself stronger. I made it. I didn't keep on looking for him not even miscall for I simply want to have him a day out of any problems that I caused him these past few days or months. For all the worries I brought to him.

I feel so new about myself. So satisfied with all things that happened today, with all the places that I went to. I feel that I can conquer each odds, each loneliness alone. I feel stronger that I was able to visit each places which reminds me of him without crying my heart out for I know his there with me also, here in my heart.

Honestly, though I was alone. I didn't feel lonely at all...

iL0vey0usomuchmyBanako..mwaaahh....

20 things...

Was scanning my scrapbook and found out this valentine letter dated Feb. 20, 2006...

20 Things He LOVE about US.

1. OUR LOVE
2. OUR SACRIFICE
3. OUR :*
4. OUR HUG
5. OUR CARE
6. OUR BELIEF
7. OUR HOLDING HANDS
8. EVERY PLANS WE HAD BAHALA WALA KLARO
9. THE WAY WE CALL EACH OTHER (BbF & kuLiT)
10. THE OFTEN WE MET
11. OUR IMPOSSIBLE YET REALISTIC PLANS
12. OUR WHISPER OF 'I LOVE YOU's'
13. OUR 20th OF THE MONTH
14. OUR MESSAGES
15. OUR GIFTS
16. OUR MOVIE WATCHING
17. OUR RING
18. OUR TRUST
19. OUR SONGS
20. HIS HAPPINESS & MY HAPPINESS

Of course, there are explanations behind it but choose to have it that way...

i miss youuuu so much myBanako...

There will be 20million other reasons what I love about US, but it's always be 'YOU' on top of the list...

iL0vey0usomuchmyBanako..mwah...

 i simply miss you...