I am Sorry

It was suppose to be fun but I stopped each and every moment bothered of how u were.

Can't get rid of this guilt feeling coz I know I so far away from your foolish expectations.

Foolish as it seems yet so endearing like a child being spoiled of what he has in mind.

I see your face everywhere even if my sight would not let me.

My deepest apology is hardly said but to least I only wish that still you and me at the end.

I love you- It would never change even a tiny wee bit. mwah.

Happy 77th monthsarry to myBanako!....

Happy 77th monthsarry!

MyBanako, you're the reason that keeps me going. No matter how tough my day is, there is this particular time of the day that made me happy and look forward to each day that is seeing you though it means only on skype. It doesn't matter though. Nothing changes but can't deny that I miss you sooo much and I so wanna be with you every single day of my life.

I wanna thank you myBanako for still there with me, fighting throughout this journey. You never leave me despite I know how hard and difficult it is for us. You're there continue to teach and inspire me on what life brings and on what life ahead of us. Thank you for the efforts on showing how much you care for me though I know how difficult it is for you because of the distance, I knew it too well 'coz I'm in it as well.

Happy 77th monthsarry myBanako! I know we can get through this. And there will be that one special time or day that will reunite us and will never ever get separated again.

Nothings change, it's just I miss you so much, this is the only difference.

[TRUE LOVE doesn't mean being inseparable; it means being separated and nothing changes.]

[a quote made by him one time when I asked him to. :)]

iloveyousomuchmyBanako...mwaah

Happy 77th monthsarry!

Love Lots,

kulit, your asawa

looking forward, praying, hoping to be with you again. :)

Happy 77th monthsarry to myBanako!....

I love you so much still..... I'll just update my message tomorrow. Super sleepy and super tired and busy earlier. Whew!

Anyhow, before this night ends. I still wanna shout to the world that "i love you myBanako" and i miss you sooo much....

We can get through this....mwaah

Hope to see you soon, thanks for the poem B.mwah

update: got finished with my room and editing the pictures. Below are the pictures.

this is what my room wall looks like. i lurrrveee it much. :)

[the teddy bear got a name, He is "BbF" or I call him with his nick at times "Antet". He has a mission in life and it's all written on that piece of paper which I keep it for years already and in which he already know what he's for. :) keep the good job Antet. xoxoxo. The heart beside him, is given by his master, the same guy who bought Antet for me. She is "BIG HEART". We call her that way for she's so big. LOL. She's my companion at night and the one who comfort me as well when there master is not around. Especially in times like this. They brought happiness to me and of course, their master who brought so much joy and love to me.]

[the quote is made by him. I actually asked him one time. :D]

Happy 77th monthsarry myBanako!

Wheeeww! Viollllaaaaaaaaaaa... This is what my wall room looks like. I got so envied with one of the tumbler blog I follow. The Home Sweet Home blog, in which randomly there are images of a room that has pictures posted in walls, everywhere and frames. Thus, I decided to make one of my own for our 77th monthsarry. I was busy yesterday for my TOR in which I follow up at my school and went after to SM to just stroll and hang around. Oopppss! I need to finished this because there's something important I need to make today. Lazy kulit! Anyhow, how do you find my room wall? Isn't it cute and nice and full of lovey-doveyy... hhahahaha... I know he will complain about this again, like my mom who's first words she said "what happen to your wall..." LOL. I superrr love it. I don't care. It's my room. badd cheettah . As long as I don't hurt anyone and as long as I'm happy with what I'm doing well, yeahhh I'll go for it. Thus, this made my day so happy plus seeing him earlier before he went off to work. Yaaayyy so much! *insert face with utmost glee*

To myBanako, your message is on the next post because I know you'll complain again that I don't have something for you. hahaha and I know it's true that you complain, you just don't want to accept it. *winks

Anyhow, I love you sooo much myBanako.

Happy 77th monthsarry!

Wish you're here next to me right now. I wanna be with you sooner. :)

I Remember

It was a rainy evening when all you did was to weep in tears

Rain drops fell and no one else did hear

Broken young heart seeking to get fixed

What to do? love again and be ditched?

Yesterday I saw you seems nothing's queer

I insanely admire your beautiful face

But how do I get rid of this fear?

Could I just hold you without anything to say?

I love you is all I need to utter

Oh please cupid shoot me with your arrow of beer

Being giddy doesn't even matter

As long as at the end I can lean on your shoulder

A day I woke up with you in my arms

Is it a dream or only created  by my foolish mind?

Yes it's true! pinch me then I'll know

If not then one truth I have in heart I do always love you

I'm almost complete 'till we got separated

It's been a while since we actually dated

Memories I recall whenever I miss you

Still a sparkling smile when I think of what we've been through.

-BbF

P.S.

Wish I could be next to you very soon.

Happy Monthsarry. I love u so much.

a rainy morning

I'm super busy this past few weeks. Preparing evidences here and there, processing documents here and there, thinking how to do this and that, money maattersss, plus time and efforts... Whew! It's just a busy month for me. I just woke up and the first thought came in my mind is : MISSING HIM darn much! as he was still the last thing I have in mind when I went to sleep at 12mn last night. It's been over a year and few months passed, nothing's change that much. I'm still head over heels in love with him. I just can't take that thought ooutta of this head. I'm missing him, every single day. I pray sooner, I pray and wish and hope that soonerrr, very soooner I'll be with him...

For pictures of this post, I decided I'll post what I did yesterday. Two days RD and just spendin it at home, waiting for him and being with him. I was busy with my scrapbook yesterday, so here are some glimpse of it.

These are some of the pages I have with my scrapbook, quite messy but everything that ties the two of us, our memories that we wanted to reminisce and every time spend before are there. One witnessed how insanely sanely in love I am with him. :D