Happy New Year myBanako!!!

New Year, new months to wait, new days to spend...

Another 365 1/4 days has passed and still nothing new about this love I have for you. For I've been constantly and always falling in love with you.

Our 2009 seems to be a nightmare to me for you're so milessss away from me. Distance is killing me inside. I was having a difficult year without you. Experienced a lot of first times of the 5 years we're together. Surprisingly, I managed to face it all. I was able to say to myself "Kaya ra diay! I CAN!!! whew..."

Creating memories for the first time without you is really an awful thing to do. Waking up each day with the thoughts of you miles away get on my nerves. Celebrating monthsarries, anniversaries and occasions without you by my side is really killing me inside.

Throughout the entire year we experienced a lot. We even experienced a lot of first times without having each other. Bummer may it seems without you but what else we can do.

I never thought that January 2009, will be the last month that we can spend all 30 days having each other. If I only knew that we'll part ways sooner we could have celebrate all the occasions and all our Special days in advance, if only, we could have...

I simply can't imagine myself celebrating Heart's Day last February in net cafe.

I never thought that arguing with you while miles apart for the first time last time in March would be that very difficult.

And when April comes, I never realized that how much I miss saying 'i love you to you' in person that I could only spam it through our blog.

Wanting to say it's too much was all I felt last May. However, I simply can't just deny that I kept on dreaming about you and that I'm reminisicing each last days with you.

Last June, I could only wish one thing having "1 BIG HAPPY FAMILY WITH YOU'' with you as my only husband. It was this time also the first time I'm dealing with my self to be a better me. It was this time when we're also dealing with our differences.

But yet, on July 'You're still the reason that I can smile in a cold Sunday morning'.

One day in August, I feel so betrayed & you're at your worst self feeling the confusion with our relationship. And it scared me to death, that made me say 'LDR is not an easy thing'...

As we entered the first 'ber-months' which is September. I can't help myself from giving you WISHES every single day & can't help looking forward to be with you each day.

October comes still have the thoughts of you. We got Emmy & Ace, our 2 adorable, helpful, amazing kids. But still, missing you much as each day passed by.

Still missing you, thinking of you and wanting to be with you in Novemeber. I was still dealing with my self, I even realized that I have such a sweet misery.

When December came, still realize I'm still so much in love with you. Celebrating my special day, our special day and Jesus special day. Though we're miles apart but we managed to be together despite what happened throughout the day.

With this 2010, surely there will be a lot of new experiences and new memories to create. New things to learn. New person to met. There will be new things this year ahead but I want you to know that this year ahead. I'll still be the kulit who'll always love you so much. The kulit who will always stay by your side. The same kulit who will be fighting & waiting 'till I'll be in your arms again.

I'll still be the kulit you love and still  be you're kulit no matter how our year starts and how it ends.

I miss you so much myBanako & happy new year!!!