too late..

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its really too late to change...
too late for everything for me now...
too late to correct all those things...
too late to erase those bad memories and let the good ones prevail.

too late to let him go... i don't know how...
i know i can't...
i love him way toooo much of considering him out of my life....
but the same time i don't wanna be selfish....

it's just ironic that i post earlier things to have a lasting LDR and here i am telling myself to let go...
hahahay, i'm getting tired....

until when i have this strength?
until when i can win?
until when i can endure of all the pain that i started all?

God, please help me...
what my heart desires is to be with him forever.... till eternity it takes...