falling apart

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For the past few days, we experienced our love been put into a test again. Test that would certainly measure how much we love and how much will hold on and fight.. Before, his faith and trust was put into test.. N0w, it's my turn... I never imagine it feels this way, it is so hard and I felt so guilty for I let him felt that way before.. The feeling is so unbearable..You can't eat no matter how you force yourself to eat... You try to sleep and tend to forget but still , it keeps haunting your thoughts every now and then... You try to enjoy as if nothing happens but still the pretentions is not enough to cover the pain...You can even think things are falling apart, your losing your grip no matter how tight you hold... you tend to smile and then, cry later.. you wanna shout..have many questions in mind that you wish in the first place it should not be there.. you continue to search for answers that somehow will ease the pain... unfortunately, those will not just unfold right there and then in your naked eyes..

Trials will really test you and your special half... you cry and drive you insane... you don't know where to start, how to start and what to do... you don't know why this should happen... You really just don't know why... But not until, you'll be calm and clarify things to the person you can't live without... The only person who will answers those question and who will let you understand and pick you into pieces... The only person who will let you know the truth despite how bad you felt with the revelations and confessions...

There's so much talking and listening, hurting and revelations in the whole process that you need a big heart and a whole mind to understand and accept the truth....

But despite and inspite how it all started... The most important thing is how it will end....

h0ld 0n, fight and love each other m0re...