PAST do not define the FUTURE...
Labels: changes, thoughts, trustI admit I have flaws..
I have s0 many insecurities and issues.. in life and in me...
I'm n0t a perfect girl as 0thers may think I Am.
I'm stubborn and rude.
I want my 0wn ways always.
I understand but tend t0 n0t understand. I'am such a risk taker.
I d0n't care and d0n't mind what 0ther thinks.
I feel worthless and feel pity to myself.
There still m0re 0f negative attitude I c0mp0se 0f.
And f0r all i kn0w the r0ot 0f it defines what happened in my past.
I was blaming my past f0r what I Am n0w.
It was s0 hard when I think 0f what life will I have instead 0f playing ar0und with 0ther kids. Instead 0f thinking 0n l0lip0ps, ice creams nd n0 clases..
And there I was, thinking h0w will I be happy with it, h0w will I live with it and h0w will I forget all of it.
My past d0 n0t define my present and 0f course I'll n0t all0w my future... but as I gr0w up and discover a lot of things.. I easily give my trust to someone but don't give myself a chance to TRUST myself.. I tend to forget everything and start a new each day. I thought I already did. I thought those were just one bad dream that one day I can't think of but, those always come back, haunt me s0metimes n my dream..it was really a nightmare..I just wanna live al0ne,g0 to a place that n0b0dy knew me.. for I'm s0 afraid being judge being criticize.. H0wever, in the cruel life I had before.. there is one good thing happened ...he came.. and disc0ver I'm als0 real.. But then again it just seems my past define my attitude, my pers0nality especially 0n h0w i c0pe up 0n tings.. But i kn0w there's always a big r0om to gr0w and enough time t0 change. Though I felts sometimes I'm all alone in this j0urney...but depsite all, the things from the past and at present I never cease to give up, that is one thing I have... I never quit and never give up...
I have much m0re faith in HIM.. and in ME...
And there's always be that s0meone wh0 will n0t left me and s0me few true friend wh0 will always lift me up and never let me g0 0n this j0urney.. and wh0 will guide me 0n the right path if i g0 astray...
and who will never ever cease on loving and showing me how much they care....
ps: myBanako, iLOveyOusomuch...
I have s0 many insecurities and issues.. in life and in me...
I'm n0t a perfect girl as 0thers may think I Am.
I'm stubborn and rude.
I want my 0wn ways always.
I understand but tend t0 n0t understand. I'am such a risk taker.
I d0n't care and d0n't mind what 0ther thinks.
I feel worthless and feel pity to myself.
There still m0re 0f negative attitude I c0mp0se 0f.
And f0r all i kn0w the r0ot 0f it defines what happened in my past.
I was blaming my past f0r what I Am n0w.
It was s0 hard when I think 0f what life will I have instead 0f playing ar0und with 0ther kids. Instead 0f thinking 0n l0lip0ps, ice creams nd n0 clases..
And there I was, thinking h0w will I be happy with it, h0w will I live with it and h0w will I forget all of it.
My past d0 n0t define my present and 0f course I'll n0t all0w my future... but as I gr0w up and discover a lot of things.. I easily give my trust to someone but don't give myself a chance to TRUST myself.. I tend to forget everything and start a new each day. I thought I already did. I thought those were just one bad dream that one day I can't think of but, those always come back, haunt me s0metimes n my dream..it was really a nightmare..I just wanna live al0ne,g0 to a place that n0b0dy knew me.. for I'm s0 afraid being judge being criticize.. H0wever, in the cruel life I had before.. there is one good thing happened ...he came.. and disc0ver I'm als0 real.. But then again it just seems my past define my attitude, my pers0nality especially 0n h0w i c0pe up 0n tings.. But i kn0w there's always a big r0om to gr0w and enough time t0 change. Though I felts sometimes I'm all alone in this j0urney...but depsite all, the things from the past and at present I never cease to give up, that is one thing I have... I never quit and never give up...
I have much m0re faith in HIM.. and in ME...
And there's always be that s0meone wh0 will n0t left me and s0me few true friend wh0 will always lift me up and never let me g0 0n this j0urney.. and wh0 will guide me 0n the right path if i g0 astray...
and who will never ever cease on loving and showing me how much they care....
ps: myBanako, iLOveyOusomuch...
1 comment:
What you need to know about the past is that no matter what has happened, it has all worked together to bring you to this very moment. And this is the moment you can choose to make everything new. Right now.
Stop acting as if life is a rehearsal. Live this day as if it were your last. The past is over and gone. The future is not guaranteed.
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