A freakingly hot June 01

It's the first day of June, and it's freakingly hot during the afternoon, summer is about to end and rainy days will come to soon. Whewww! And shall I say, I embraced it with a crying eyes. This week is a crying madness! trust me! my eyes are already deteriorating plus with the eyebags. It's just this week is one hilarious week.

There are good news this week though however, I can't stop from being so pessimist. arggh!!!
I just want to stop everything and anything that causing so much pain in my heart. But I know it's my gawd damn choice to feel those pain. It's just I don't want to feel the lonely feeling anymore/being alone.

I so hate it... But anyway, I know I can get by with this.

On unrelated note: I'm crossing my fingers, praying so hard that this June. Everything will turn out fine they way we plan it.

Unrelated note again:  To someone out there who's in NZ right now. It's just i love you so much and gawd damn miss you. I'll see you soon. :) mwah