9th wish: DO ALWAYS THINK : 'THE LAW OF ATTRACTION'...

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9. DO ALWAYS THINK : 'THE LAW OF ATTRACTION'...

There's this one special guy who once said 'LAW OF ATTRACTION kulit. Think what your heart desires and nothing else don't be distracted on the hard things nor the trials but think that you can fulfill and will reach all your goal and all you want to achieve. You can reach what your heart desires.' not really the right words though but I expounded it.

myBanako, I cling to that statement 'LAW OF ATTRACTION KULIT' and never ever open to possibilities or consider you out of my life though I might cross the bridge when I get there. However, my life will never be the same if you're not part of it.

Furthermore, this is my 9th wish that I want you to have. You told me about it before and this time its my turn to tell you...

' LAW OF ATTRACTION myBanako... Trust me, this works. Cling to what you really want, set your mind to what you wanted to happen with your life, focus on your goals, reach your dreams and follow what your heart desires. Consider trials as a challenge and it will just flow away and make you stronger. Do rememmber myBanako, follow what you heart desires and apply with it the Law of Attraction.

Happy advance birthday to you myBanako...

Hope to be with you sooner myBanako.. mwah..

L0ve L0ts,
kulit, your asawa

hoping, praying, wishing and looking forward to be with You again...

8th wish: CONTINUE TO MAKE ME BLUSH and SHOWING HOW MUCH YOU CARE...

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8. CONTINUE TO MAKE ME BLUSH and SHOWING HOW MUCH YOU CARE...

give me a chance myBanako, I'm making this wishes... hehehe... yeah!... you read it right, CONTINUE TO MAKE ME BLUSH, continue to let me feel beautiful each day and continue me to let me feel loved.... in short, e.continue nang cgeg char2x nimo...hehehehe..joksz!

Bitaw, back to my business... continue letting me feel I am love by you myBanako, for it always makes my day. An 'i love you' a day makes the worries away and makes my day.

Happy advance birthday to you myBanako...

Hope to be with you sooner myBanako.. mwah..

L0ve L0ts,
kulit, your asawa

hoping, praying, wishing and looking forward to be with You again...

7th wish: MARK YOUR WORDS...

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7. MARK YOUR WORDS...

MARK YOUR WORDSSSsssss... dili kai mo ana ka nga "dili na kulit" pero jpon d.ay toh, in the end...mao jpon buhaton!.. nangasaba bah myBanako.. well, it's true... How many times you told me nga "dli na kulit" then wla jpon, how many times mo ana kah "mo.comment ka nig off" pero wla jpon d.ay... hehehe...

Sometimes, I'm afraind believing things you told me because you did not make it to the point nga you'll do the things that you said. But it doen't change anything 'ibog jpon ayo ko nimo' wish lng ko ma.change ka ana... hehehe bisaya wui!...

gihigugma tika pag.ayo myBanako!.. mwah... og gimingaw njd kaayo ko nimo!...

ikaw ra ang bugtong itik nga g.kapa2x sa akong doghan!... hehehe..

mwaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...

Happy advance birthday to you myBanako...

Hope to be with you sooner myBanako.. mwah..

L0ve L0ts,
kulit, your asawa

hoping, praying, wishing and looking forward to be with You again...

6th wish : DONT GIVE UP, KEEP FIGHTING with HOPE...

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6. DONT GIVE UP, KEEP FIGHTING with HOPE...


"When things went wrong never suggest of letting go coz it's just a little reminder that this time you should hold on MORE..."

sounds familiar myBanako? Letme try to repharse it using my own set of words but having the same thoughts... hehehe...

It's like saying, NEVER GIVE UP when tough times comes. Keep FIGHTing till you get what your heart desires and simply do HOPE that everything will turn out alright.

sakto ba ang thought myBanako? hehehe.. connected still with my 5th wishes,rayt?

I love you so much myBanako. My 6th wish please, please I know we have issues, a lot actually and it keeps on ruining our relationship every now and then when we remember those by our freaking minds and missing-so-much-each-other-feeling. Nevertheless, I know will not let go for we both love each other. Keep holding the bond myBanako, the rope which connects me to you. The path which I know will meet our ways. Keep holding on my hand, my heart and my soul.

I love you so much still myBanako, despite the imperfections we have. It doesn't matter, for I am perfectly so much in love with you.

Happy advance birthday to you myBanako...

Hope to be with you sooner myBanako.. mwah..

L0ve L0ts,
kulit, your asawa

hoping, praying, wishing and looking forward to be with You again...

5th wish: STAND STILL and STAY STRONGER esp. with the tough times.

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5. STAND STILL and STAY STRONGER esp. with the tough times.

Whew!... when tough times occurs OMG you always make me freak out. I know your stronger than me, your much controlled than me, you have more than anything in the world than me, plus you have me.... hahahaha... But the things you once said doesn't make you stronger for it surely shows off how coward you were that you throw all those painful, harsh and out of this world words at me... ouch!.. those hurts epecially when its you who said those but I know you didn't mean it because you were just angry. and.... it's bad myBanako..... right? do you agree with me?.... its better to put your hands on me than say those words for words once said are really hard to forget. But anyways, my whole point is you are already strong please keep it up but just change some perspective like the way you show me how strong you are through those words. It's not right.

Is this a wish? hehehe.. yeah, for helping you come back to once you said you were a good person and I r****d it. Your always a good person to me, you never changed. I always love the way and who you are and I am continue feeling this way loving you till the end, till eternity it takes.... hehehehe *kulit giggles*...hehehehe

I love you more than anyone love someone so much in the history of the world and I love you more than you ever know....ggrrr, yaw palabi kulit sa imong gbati... hahahaha..... i know!. i just can't help it..

Happy advance birthday to you myBanako...

Hope to be with you sooner myBanako.. mwah..

L0ve L0ts,
kulit, your asawa

hoping, praying, wishing and looking forward to be with You again...

quick post.... i miss you...

out nami!.. hapit lng.. hahay, i hate dis feeling.. mood swings.. and way too emotional karon!.. ambot lng.. Mood swigs lng jd... girly thing!.. huhuhuhu... i wanna cry... akong doghan mobuto na sa kamingaw sa isa ka tao.. i hate having this thing every month it always makes me weaker kai mg.mood swings ko.. too emotional raba kaayo jd koh!.. huhuhu....

nag.ka.chat mi kadyot niha!... karon natog na cya... and i asked him nga...

kULiT: do you miss me?
BbF: i miss u smch more dan d world cud comprehend my asawa..

huhuhuhuh.... i missing him so much and much more jd myBanako..mwaaah..

mwaaah..

hope to be with u so soon.......

uli naq!.. hapit2x lng..mwaaah....

4th wish: PRAY ALWAYS or as OFTEN...

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4. PRAY ALWAYS or as OFTEN...

Every now and then, this is one of the best thing that I cling on, this will calm me and will keep my sanity. And After I woke up, before going to bed, upon riding a jeep on my way to work, after work, before duty starts and before doing anything. I randomly pick prayers from my thought though it doesn't show it and each prayers I made I never miss a single part with you in it esp. the times when were not in good terms. I hold still with my faith in Him and with US that everything will turn out alright.

So for my 4th wish : PRAY ALWAYS or as OFTEN...

I know it doesn't necessarily mean you'll have to pray the rosary as often as you pray. But at least, talk to HIM and say your own thought together with a prayer and surely eventhough how freak your mind is it will help you calm and think of not the bad things but the good things.

Pray for your safety myBanako, for your health, for all the things you achieved, for your family, for your safe drive on way to work, bsta pray myBanako.... for everthing else... mwaaah..


Happy advance birthday to you myBanako...

Hope to be with you sooner myBanako.. mwah..

L0ve L0ts,
kulit, your asawa

hoping, praying, wishing and looking forward to be with You again...

3rd wish: BE HEALTHY and DON'T DARE GET SICK...

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3. BE HEALTHY and DON'T DARE GET SICK...

You must comply this one also. I need you to have a GOOD HEALTH just like being safe you must and need to have this one. Yaw pabaya ntawn, eat balance diet yaw ntawn permiha ang noodles lng, eat right & healthy foods (balance diet foods), drink plenty of water, get right sleep. Get rest pd ntawn myBanako, yaw palabi ayo sa work. Have fun pd and enjoy life, my wishes connect someway in one another, kbntay ka B?.... from being healthy to being safe and being happy....

This is an order myBanako hap, you must jd nih.. hehehe.. kai I need you ntawn and I can't take a though nga there's something ma.happen nimo diha nga wla ko... it will surely freak me out.. so, please don't get me so worried... k?

Maybe the best sentence that will describe my 3rd wish is: Have a happy, unrisky and healthy lifestyle... whew!

Happy advance birthday to you myBanako...

Hope to be with you sooner myBanako.. mwah..

L0ve L0ts,
kulit, your asawa

hoping, praying, wishing and looking forward to be with You again...

2nd wish: BE SAFE...

2. BE SAFE...

We know for the fact with our current situation right now. We're way too miles, oceans or country apart. No one is there for you except for your newly found friends or shall I say new found family with jong, sookie, kuya tony boy. I'm not there nor your family so my 2nd wish is

I need you to be safe. No prerequisite. What you need to do is to be SAFE...




[whew!... bryta naq wui, bright or nangita lng jd og way... hahaha.. i took the pics again using printscreen function sa keyboard and too bad kai akong g.rentan nga net kai wlai ms paint...huhuuh.. but i found ms word, aha!.. hehehe..d light bulb ni.siga, so i went on paste those printscreened pics and the problem after was, how will i made it into a .jpeg... since akong bana naa lakaw mg.soroy2x daw kai off niya..den ako den 12pm ang duty.. so i went off to work and pg.abot sa work.. hehehe..ayg saba!.. ngita ko way how to make the pics nga mga .jpeg and viola!!!.. weeee..... tn.awa ang pics na .jpeg na cya....hehehe.. bsta taas ayo ang process on how i made it nga na .jpeg cya.. ang importante, i got what i wanted and it all turn out well... love it!!.. hehehehe


[pics was taken a while ago, hehehe.. mao ni cya ko g.sugo nga paduolon sa monitor para mokiss.. hehehee]


I need you to be safe in whatever you do, where you are. Be safe always ntawn myBanako and expect me to do the same. Be in a safe place with safe inviduals or group. Don't just trust someone directly. Pray to God always for guidance.

Be safe intawn, as what you said before.. "i need a wife, dli asawa nga mag.risk sa iyang self' ... Well then, "i need you... i need a husband who is you", please intawn be safe...

Be safe esp. when your driving. Remember the stop, look and go cgnal on traffic lights. Your speed don't way to as in pas-pas kaayo ang dagan. ok? mura man ko mama ani nimo wui? hehehe..

bsta just be safe ntawn myBanako..mwaah...

Happy advance birthday to you myBanako...

Hope to be with you sooner myBanako.. mwah..

L0ve L0ts,
kulit, your asawa

hoping, praying, wishing and looking forward to be with You again...

1st wish : HAPPINESS...

1st day of 'ber-months', 1st day of September and 1st day of his special month....

It's already the 'ber-months' and Christmas is just around the corner. I woke up a while ago and what I heard from radio stations are Christmas songs and it makes me smile wondering I'll be with him sooner...

And before we celebrate Christmas there is this another event that I will not surely forget and will not surely want to miss...


[g.chat mi niha, mao ni ang pics i took from printscreen fuction sa keyboard... hehehe...]


His birthday.... it's just around the corner... weee...

but soo sad, his in NZ and me and his family are here in Pinas.

Daahh let's not think about it, what matters is sooner I will be or his family will be with him....

More importantly, I'll be giving him wishes each and every day in his special month. It's not like before when the 1st of Sept. comes I already have 30 paper balloons that I will give to him each day with my messages... hehehe... I miss those old times.

I was actually finding a sheet of paper where he wrote his 30 wishes before. I did not lost it, but I gave it to him when he went to NZ including with some stuffs came from me and the ring I wore for about 2 years which he gave it on my 18th birthday. I wished I could have copy it first before I gave it to him, so that I can post it on our blog.


Let's now proceed to my 1st birthday wish....



1. HAPPINESS...

Wherever you are, whatever you do, whoever your with please be happy... For I will be happy knowing your happy. Your happiness means so much to me, for it will brighten my day with the happiness you brings.

I know what your heart desires and what will make you so happy... but right now, please be happy for I know sooner everything will turn out alright and what matters is "i L0ve you so much"... mwah.

If I haven't told you before, well it's time to let you know that... nothing means more to me than You and your happiness...

iL0vey0usomuchmyBanako.. and never a day I haven't think about you with me...

Happy advance birthday to you myBanako...

Hope to be with you sooner myBanako.. mwah..

L0ve L0ts,
kulit, your asawa

hoping, praying, wishing and looking forward to be with You again...


ps: ako ona mo.greet jd nimo B.. way too advance ra ayo ko greetings jd...hehhehe..

new hair....

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after 6 months didto sa NZ..... myBanako, decided to cut his hair for the first time didto. And tadaaann.. nibalik na cya pg.kabata not unlike atong ta.as kaayo og hair....

... click on the image for larger view

......[seryos mode].............. [kiss mode]...............[g.tink mode]...........



..........[gtink mode npd ;)........................[smile sa bao mode]............

hehehee, the pics were taken niha before saq shift, g.chat mi..kana nlang nga pic akong g.gamit pg.post... bydaways, his wearing his uniform para duty.. hehe..ingon cya murag uniform sa goldilocks dnhi sa pinas.... [Sept.1 na ron, now lng na.published kai karon lng ko naka.kuha sa pics, mao nang niha akong gmean g.chat mi]...hahahaha


kolba.an naq ani samot kai dghan kompetensya... hahaha..pero bahala cla!.. bbleee... ako na ntawn na cya og wlay lain maka.ilog... hahahah...

gmingaw naq ani niya pg.ayo.. as n jd!..sobra pa sa gmingaw jd... huhuhu.. mg.almost 7 months nami wala g.kita personally og still inlove jpon ko ani niya bisan og cgeg pangaway.. heheeh..

hoi myBanako, post daw comment... kaw hap!.. hehehe.. mang.luod naq nimo dli ka mo post og comment.. iL0vey0usomuchmyBanako..mwaah...

too late..

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its really too late to change...
too late for everything for me now...
too late to correct all those things...
too late to erase those bad memories and let the good ones prevail.

too late to let him go... i don't know how...
i know i can't...
i love him way toooo much of considering him out of my life....
but the same time i don't wanna be selfish....

it's just ironic that i post earlier things to have a lasting LDR and here i am telling myself to let go...
hahahay, i'm getting tired....

until when i have this strength?
until when i can win?
until when i can endure of all the pain that i started all?

God, please help me...
what my heart desires is to be with him forever.... till eternity it takes...

LDR is not an easy thing.....

How to have a lasting long distance relationship.

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LDR is not an easy thing. It's difficult to make short distant relationship work how much more if you're miles, state, ocean or country apart. It's hard to argue things even if your together. And it's much more difficult if you don't see each other face to face. Not knowing how he'll react or she'll react. However, successful long distance relationships can and do exist. LDR can also survive arguements and misunderstanding. But take note, this should be on both parties. BF and GF involved in the relationship not anybody else.

As we experienced ups and downs in LDR. I ponder on things and on factors on how to give our relationship the chance to survive and thrive.


1. TRUST...TRUST..TRUST....not just mere trust that comes out from the mouth.. but TRUST. with the capital T. R. U. S. T. full trust. Trust your partner even if your felt betrayed before. Trust your partner even if you felt pain before. Trust your partner even if you feel his/she's not trusting you. For in trusting you can find true peace in mind and in heart..... [ikanga saq one friend or nila: konsinsya nalng jd na as imong partner!..ang importante wla kai gbuhat nga da.otan og g.love ra nimo cya... hehehe]

2. Open and constant communication with a touch of honesty..

Open and constant communicati0n with a touch of honesty... Constant communication is one key factor for having a lasting LDR...

Conversation that do not comes with lies, conversations that are true. Lies in between let you fool yourself and your partner.

Conversation or communication that has a touch of honesty. Telling your partner what bothers you, telling your partner what you feel, tellng your partner where you are, whose with you, telling your partner your activity for the day and future plans/activities, telling your partner what you feel, why you feel that way, telling him/her anything and everything that lingers on your head... In this way, you can avoid your partner be freak out on thinking what happened to you. It's not necessary that you'll agree on all things also. Disagreements is quite good in a relationship short distant or long distant for it will make you get to know your partner more. However, in such a way there is that something or things that will bind the two of you in which you came up with a unanimous decision.

In this way also, letting your partner know what you are up to for the day will let him/her feel you're included in her/his day to day activities even if your miles, state or country apart.

3. Do things together despite the distance. Defy the distance. Distance is not the reason you will not do the same things at a time. Do things together than the usual phone call or instant messaging. Right now, I'm still on the stage on encouraging him to do things together as we're still striving to survive each day without each other's side. I'm sending him emails and after work sending him quotes. But needs still to encourage him to be showy enough to me... hehehe..

[to him: anyways, it's not too late myBanako to change... and i just love you the way you are and the way you show how you love me...]


4. Talk about the future, set plans together. Have hope and faith that those will come into reality. Nothing is impossible you just have enough patience and faith that everything will turn out fine and alright in the perfect time set by Him.

Me and myBanako already have plans and hopefully in time, this December everything will turn out alright as we fulfill those plans, our plans, our dreams, our future together.

5. Don't lose grip, hold each other not so tight but enough that you will not let go of the love that was/is/will shared. Still continue to love and hold each others hand. Some way or another there is that rope that binds the two of you. There is that intangible connection that on both ends you and your partner is holding or me and myBanako is holding....


There are lots of things or factors as I search on Google for things that will have lasting LDR. I just came up with 5. If you're on LDR you might as well check out the links below for reference and also for some LDR things and tips. Those might actually help.

WikiHow: http://www.wikihow.com/Make-a-Long-Distance-Relationship-Work
Fave LDR site: http://www.lovingfromadistance.com/
Do's and Don'ts on LDR: http://ezinearticles.com/
LDR comments: http://www.aish.com/d/w/48964126.html


Only believe in two things, Him for guiding you through your journeys and what we so called Destiny....

and the second one....

believe in your LOVE, as it will only take the two of you on your journey... Trust me, LDR will work and worth fighting and waiting for...

ciao!.. be happy and stay in love.. don't ever let go...

happy birthday tita......

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I am happy in love again.. hehehe... I had so much fun last night. I was invited to a birthday party of my husband's mom.. hehehe.. I never expected the invitation but well, the invitation was originally sent to myBanako and I was informed by him before hand. But still, I want to come to the party half hearted and last Aug. 19. I miss call his mom to assure that she'll received my greeting. After a minute, she then called and invited me.. whew!.. kolba pd ang show jd dah... heheheheh..

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Last night, we celebrated his mom's birthday but physicall myBanako is in NZ. huhuhuh.. I enjoyed the night together with his sistersssss and with the entire family. I felt was I'm part of the family.. hahaha ..bagag nawng og atay... Very well, his family is the best.. the bond, the closeness, the openess .... I witnessed it personally for how many years that I know them...

Before the party was about to end, at around 9pm in Phil's. time and around 1am in NZ's time. He called to greet his mom and before that I keep on sending him emails on what happened in the party. hahahay, I know his family wish his there especially his mom. I was wishing too his there celebrating with them or can I say with us? He talked to his mom, dad, then me.. then to tiny (her sister, next eldest) , then to poloy (his cousin), to his every lambing lola, back to me again, then to idoy (his bro), then back to me again.. hahaha..

1 hour phone call fits everybody to hear his voice...but surely not enough... it's well, at least we heard his voice, knowing his okay and greeting his mom and celebrating with us.... and uhuhuhuhuhu.. i miss him terribly... I was hiding and holding myself so that I can't cry in front of his sister but deep insde my heart moist and wants to cry...

However, I am still thankful for the night that was. For that is one step for making everything alright.


ps: i was not able to take pictures kai na.shy man ko... hehehe
behave ragd kaayo koh...

happy 68th monthsarry myBanako

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68th months!.. and still counting.... 6 months that I haven't see you personally and still counting... i missing you so much and much myBanako.... each day passed, I'm missing you much...

iL0vey0usomuchmyBanako...

no matter what happens please don't let go...
just hold on.. hold me so tight don't lose grip...
for i know sooner we will be okey... we will be together again....
and reminisce those memories, and have the usual talk we had before....

everything will turn out fine... everything will turn out all right...
believe in me.. and as well as believe in Him for I know He will always be with US guiding us through our journey...

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believe as well in our LOVE... for we surpass almost everything and i know for sure we will surpass and get through this..

iLoveyouso much still myBanako... nothing change....

You belong to ME, only and I always belong to YOu.
ps: and there's nothing you can do about it ... hehehe.. ; )


Happy 68th monthsarry myBanako..mwaaaahh..

iLoveyousomuchmyBanako..mwaah..



L0ve L0ts,
kulit, your asawa

hoping, praying, wishing and looking forward to be with You again...

falling apart

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For the past few days, we experienced our love been put into a test again. Test that would certainly measure how much we love and how much will hold on and fight.. Before, his faith and trust was put into test.. N0w, it's my turn... I never imagine it feels this way, it is so hard and I felt so guilty for I let him felt that way before.. The feeling is so unbearable..You can't eat no matter how you force yourself to eat... You try to sleep and tend to forget but still , it keeps haunting your thoughts every now and then... You try to enjoy as if nothing happens but still the pretentions is not enough to cover the pain...You can even think things are falling apart, your losing your grip no matter how tight you hold... you tend to smile and then, cry later.. you wanna shout..have many questions in mind that you wish in the first place it should not be there.. you continue to search for answers that somehow will ease the pain... unfortunately, those will not just unfold right there and then in your naked eyes..

Trials will really test you and your special half... you cry and drive you insane... you don't know where to start, how to start and what to do... you don't know why this should happen... You really just don't know why... But not until, you'll be calm and clarify things to the person you can't live without... The only person who will answers those question and who will let you understand and pick you into pieces... The only person who will let you know the truth despite how bad you felt with the revelations and confessions...

There's so much talking and listening, hurting and revelations in the whole process that you need a big heart and a whole mind to understand and accept the truth....

But despite and inspite how it all started... The most important thing is how it will end....

h0ld 0n, fight and love each other m0re...

... new found strength....

---- i know, things will turn out fine..... and everything's gonna be alright....

LAW OF ATTRACTION kULiT ... as wat dis one special person always said...

im trying to be strong... to stand up... and im finding a new strength deep within...
it's just with me all along.. that i got to fight and try things that I can't....

my life doesn't stop on things that I can't do...

I will continue to live as beautiful, pretty girl as I am... despite and inspite the pain....
but still, my best attitude is hopeful....

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I'm still hopeful things will turn out just fine....

betrayed.....

i feel so betrayed.....

sa pinaka.love nakong tao...

... e.hilak nalng ko nih!!!

1st day of August and i'm not feelin' well....

got a cold, cough, and a clogged nose and super kapoooiii sa lawas... og labad sa ulo..

if august 1 pa onta bie... dli ko mo.duty!.. maybe karon dli ko mo duty kai murag i need to rest... pwerting gkapoi koh and my voice.. super lo.oy na pagaw njd kaayo... hahahay, i hate being sick...

i hate this.. i need and must get well soon...

but despite sa akong gpamati karon I'm still happy... weeee!! becoz it's already August....

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it seems a long moth.. pero ok rah!.. i can get through with it.... and much excited to end August napd... pohon!...

hopfuly, no more doing tings that we can't myBanako.. k?..

out nami.. weee..
just a quick post ni


iL0vey0usomuchmyBanako.... mwaah.....

hapit paman og post.... hahahaha

confused....

I'm confused...

I don't know what to do...
I'm fighting with my heart and with my brain...

My heart tells me I'm not tired doing all the things... but my brain oppose it...

I wanna do things but so afraid and have many fears what are the outcomes... the result...

I wanna rest my heart from the pain it always feels...

I wanna rest...

I'm tired...
I'm tired feeling this way...
so confused and so scared....

I wanna be the one who's brave that can handle anything...
I wanna be the one who's not scared of losing him...
I wanna be the one who's giving him conditions and lectures....
I wanna be the one who's brave enought to show him that I can always exist without him in my world...

But his my weakness... how can I possibly do all these things I have in my head....

But I have to... I need to... If I want him to realize on things... If I want him to miss me much... If I want him to let me feel how I feel....

I have to... I need to.. but I just CAN'T....

huhuhuhu.. what else should I do...
what else I need to do...


I'm tired...

I'm only ME when I'm with YOU....

Not so busy at work and was only reading blogs... hehehe....
Then, decided to visit OUR BLOG and post an entry of one of my fave song...


Taylor Swift - I'm Only Me When I'm With You

Friday night beneath the stars
In the field behind your yard
You and I are paintin' pictures in the sky
And sometimes we don't say a thing
Just listen to the crickets sing
Everything I need is right here by my side
And I know everything about you
I don't wanna live without you

I'm only up when you're not down
Don't wanna fly if you're still on the ground
It's like no matter what I do
Well you drive me crazy half the time
The other half I'm only trying to let you know
That what I feel is true
And I'm only me when I'm with you

Just a small town boy and girl
Livin' in a crazy world
Tryin' to figure out what is and isn't true
And I don't try to hide my tears
My secrets or my deepest fears
Through it all nobody gets me like you do
And you know everything about me
You say that you can't live without me

I'll never get tired listening to this same song over and over again.. It really fits with what I am with him and with what I or we used to be... I first encountered the song, wayback 2 years ago in my senior years in college. I can even tell the story, still remember how I encountered the song, his playing dota with his classmates and I was waiting for him and just surfing the net in the same net cafe. I was browsing about anything on the net and stopped by lyricsmode.com and browse for Taylor Swift song... then tandandandan... nakakita ko sa song.. hehehhhehe....

and since then on, I listened to it almost everyday in the Bhuasz... and till now...

If were friend in FS then, you might be familiar with my background pic in my profile.. there are 7 words that stands out... hehehe...

Hahahahay, I miss the old days... The days I'm with him... The days where he spoils me by allowing me to eat junk foods [hahah, bawal man ni naq jd coz of kidney trouble]... The days when rest day come then his with me doing nothing but still enjoying the moments together... The days when I can just hug him real tight... The days when he just suddenly appears in my room while I am still sleeping or making fun out of me... The days where we stroll hand in hand at malls or anywhere... The days when there was nothing better than a date in the park and talk about us, our plans, our dreams, our future and everything else under the sun or sometimes under the bright light of the moon...

The days when i can just be myself, with HIM and only HIM..

When I'm with anybody else, it's so hard to be myself
Only He can tell... only He can tell....

myBanako, I miss the old days with you and I'm missin you so much and much and much more..

Hope to be with you sooner myBanako.. mwah..

L0ve L0ts,
kulit, your asawa

hoping, praying, wishing and looking forward to be with You again...

67th monthsarry pics....

Happy 67th monthsarry myBanako.....

me and my date.. hehehehe... the only guy who made me believe life is so worth living for... his the reason why I'm here... The very main reason on why I'm still surviving and fighting despite the situation we have right now and despite the loneliness I felt...

He is the man of my life that I wanna spend the rest of my entire life, my forever... more than my eternity with....

He is that same guy who always make me insane.... because, after crying my heart out he knows exactly how to laugh my heart out.... hehehe

Nothing can ever compare to him not anybody not anything...

His all I ever wanted. He completes the missing piece of my life and fits perfectly well.

[g.pa.cute ko sq myBanako! kahibaw mo onsa iyang g.chat naq ana?. hehehe! ]

[hahay, i miss u B esp. kanang guitar2x.an ko nmo...]

[smile sa bao.. mga bao mi!.. hahaha]

[mga amew! hahaah.. stil enjoying the moments togeder even were in both different corner of the earth]

[mmwaaahh!... hahahaha... ana lng!. we stil don't have dull moments togeder!!!]

I'm only ME when I'm with YOU myBanako... hahahay, in front nmo I can't never pretend nga OK ko or Dili... i'm missin you so much myBanako.... i miss you njd.. as n pg.ayoooooooooooooo....

I love you so much and I always will....

You're always here with me your never too far away.....

iLOveyOusooooooooooooooooooooo much myBanakoooo... mwah..


PS:

hahaay, gwait ko saq bana ron.. gkaon pa cya ron didto...
g.date mi karon!... hehehe!...

Happy 67th monthsarry myBanako... mwaah..


L0ve L0ts,
kulit, your asawa

hoping, praying, wishing and looking forward to be with You again...

happy advance 67th monthsary

happy advance 67th monthsary myBanako, greet ko da.an... 2 hours nalng, 20 nah!.... greet nlang pd ko da.an B kai out nami ron 11pm den wla pc balay para maka.gret ko nimo!..

hahahay myBanako, u made my tear fell niha wid ur msgs.. i jas can't help it.. it made me miss u so much jd... but anywisz, thank you ... thank you... thank you so much for still loving me...

myBanako, i love you so much still... for all those years, still.. ikaw rajd akong world... og still, ikaw rjd ng.bring d best with me..

i miss u so much.. i reli do!.. as n.. pg.ayooooooooooooooooooooooooooo jd!..

i know i'll be with u soon... rayt?
we'll be together, rayt?

hoping to see u so soon...

L0ve L0ts,
kulit, your asawa

hoping, praying, wishing and looking forward to be with You again...

... i still feel the pain...

I still feels the pain throughout this past few months.... the pain of missing someone, the pain of you can only touch him and be with him in dreams, the pain of being left here, the pain of longing someone, the pain of surviving each day without him physically with me...

I miss him so much, so much that I don't know how to stand and help myself from not crying...

Eventually, he knows what I feel and I demand him to comfort me and with a blink of an eye. He then puts my best smile on my face easing the pain away...

He knows me well, that he really knows exactly how to eludes the pain away...

Thank you so much myBanako... for letting me this so haappppy...

I really appreciate every bits of your actions just to comfort me eventhoug were so miles away....

I love you so much myBanako... i love you and i love you more...

All I ever wanted is You and all I ever ask is You..

You are the man of my life, You are the love of my life... but You are more than that....

You are the love of my existence...

iL0vey0usomuchmyBanako...mwah....

miss u na pg.ayooooooooooooooooo myBanakooooooooooooooooooo....

L0ve L0ts,
kulit, your asawa

hoping, praying, wishing and looking forward to be with You again...

..wla lang...

Hi myBanako,

it's almost 11... actuaally it's already 10:47pm, out nq ron taud2x.... just posting some random thought in my end because you made my day niha and now g.ruin sa mga customer nq.. hahay, but i m back to normal.. i was just reading sa atong blog.. and nawala na akong sapot...

hahay, meni2x npd d.ay ang naka.read sa atong blog B.. naa ni comment nq.. maka.hilak daw cya sa atong blog.. hahaha! mao na ni ron.. it defeats its purposes nga to share love and give happiness not cry... hehehe.. but i'll understand if it's tears with joy.. or tears of inspiration.. hehehe..

iL0vey0usoooooooooooooooooooooooo much myBanako....

i miss you much... as n..

mmwahh..

out nako B.. i'll drop an email before i went to sleep and when i arrived home.. okay?



L0ve L0ts,
kulit, your asawa

hoping, praying, wishing and looking forward to be with You again...

...... cold Sunday day with a smile on my face

...... cold Sunday day with a smile on my face

It's a cold Sunday.. It's the 5th of July. It's been how many months passed that I felt the pain and the longingness inside my heart because of my very special half flew to NZ.

I still did not get over though with the pain nor the longingness but I'm feeling much better now than before.

I get used little by little with the pain and the longingness in my heart.

And I still have the same reason to smile... nor to smile without any reasons at all than just thinking his on the other end also, log in to Yahoo, pressing those keyboards and responding to every of my messages...

He still makes me smile without no reasons at all.
He still makes me feel happy with the thoughts that his also missing me much.
and he still makes me fall in love all over again, not to anybody but ONLY to Him.

If he can just take a glimpse on how do I look when where chatting, me, using my phone and him, log in to YM then he would surely be satisfied or be so amazed with himself for putting a life on my face and on my heart through just one smile...a smile which eases all i felt....and which gives me a big hope that someday, somehow I'll be with him sooner that I expected. [Hahay!. mo dako ang atay ato,hehehe..pero tinuod man pd...]

A few minutes ago we were chatting and now his on his way to work and I'm still on my duty, answering calls, fetching emails, reading new Moon ^_^ , daydreaming about him, taking a glance on my wallpaper and blogging ...

myBanako, please do take care always and don't forget to pray...

iL0vey0usomuchmyBanako, and I always will...


hope to see u so sooooooonn...


L0ve L0ts,
kulit, your asawa

hoping, praying, wishing and looking forward to be with You again...

1st of July

Happy, cold and rainy 1st of July to all esp. to myBanako.... mwaah..

i'm happy that it's already July... it means subtracting to the nth days or months or even years that we're not together...

wish to be with you so soon myBanako, mingaw na kaayo ko nmo jd..mwah..


iL0vey0usomuchmyBanako... mwah...

miss U na ayo B... huhuhuhu

family....

One big happy family...

This is our inangkon nga baby... hehehe.. isn't he cute and adorable? samot na ang nangangkong parents...

si Daddy Franz medyo stress man...
si Mommy kULiT wafa... heheheh...
si Baby kai super cute..

peace myBanako, wafo pd akong bana kaya...

bydaway, he is Baby Philip...

sooner, we will have our own one Big happy family myBanako, rayt?... mmmmmwwaaahh

miss you so much myBanako.....


iL0vey0usomuchmyBanako... mwwaaahhhhhh

Happy Father's Day...

myBanako, happy father's day...


mmmmmmmmmwwwwwwwwwaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....

thank you for the care myBanako,
for protecting me...
for the pangasaba sahay...
for teaching me how to be strong...
for believing in me...

for trusting me though gamay rah...
for accepting me..
for never tired of saying those 3 wonderful words "i L0ve you kulit" (ngek! 4 words d.ay)

iL0veyousomuchmyBanako...mwaaah...


ps: tell pd jong B, hapi father's day pd...

happy father's day to you... mwah.

Happy 66th monthsary....

Happy 66th m0nthsary myBanak0..

I'm still amaze with the l0ve we shared and h0w everything started.. Its m0re than 5 years and still can remember that day when I'm officially your's and you're officially mine.. myBanak0, I really can't bare the thought 0f you s0 far away with me..Its tearin my heart into pieces each day and i feel so homeless, for its always in you where my heart go home and bel0ng.. each day your not with me, my thought always wandering when will be the next time I'll held you so close.. so close that I can hear your breath... I'm always anticipating 0f making m0re happy mem0ries with you myBanak0.. I wanna be with you 'til, my hair color turn out all to grey or white, i wanna be with you 'til, I'll see our children grow and them having their own children, i wanna be with you myBanak0 for the rest of God's given life t0 me.. I wanna share my achievements, happy days and sad moments with you only... myBanak0, I will be with you soon. I'm sure with that and really can't wait for that time...

I'll be with you sooner, spending my life and loving you for the rest it brings....

iL0vey0usomuchmyBanako..mwah...


L0ve L0ts,
kulit, your asawa

hoping, praying, wishing and looking forward to be with You again...

PAST do not define the FUTURE...

I admit I have flaws..
I have s0 many insecurities and issues.. in life and in me...
I'm n0t a perfect girl as 0thers may think I Am.
I'm stubborn and rude.
I want my 0wn ways always.
I understand but tend t0 n0t understand. I'am such a risk taker.
I d0n't care and d0n't mind what 0ther thinks.
I feel worthless and feel pity to myself.

There still m0re 0f negative attitude I c0mp0se 0f.
And f0r all i kn0w the r0ot 0f it defines what happened in my past.
I was blaming my past f0r what I Am n0w.
It was s0 hard when I think 0f what life will I have instead 0f playing ar0und with 0ther kids. Instead 0f thinking 0n l0lip0ps, ice creams nd n0 clases..

And there I was, thinking h0w will I be happy with it, h0w will I live with it and h0w will I forget all of it.

My past d0 n0t define my present and 0f course I'll n0t all0w my future... but as I gr0w up and discover a lot of things.. I easily give my trust to someone but don't give myself a chance to TRUST myself.. I tend to forget everything and start a new each day. I thought I already did. I thought those were just one bad dream that one day I can't think of but, those always come back, haunt me s0metimes n my dream..it was really a nightmare..I just wanna live al0ne,g0 to a place that n0b0dy knew me.. for I'm s0 afraid being judge being criticize.. H0wever, in the cruel life I had before.. there is one good thing happened ...he came.. and disc0ver I'm als0 real.. But then again it just seems my past define my attitude, my pers0nality especially 0n h0w i c0pe up 0n tings.. But i kn0w there's always a big r0om to gr0w and enough time t0 change. Though I felts sometimes I'm all alone in this j0urney...but depsite all, the things from the past and at present I never cease to give up, that is one thing I have... I never quit and never give up...

I have much m0re faith in HIM.. and in ME...

And there's always be that s0meone wh0 will n0t left me and s0me few true friend wh0 will always lift me up and never let me g0 0n this j0urney.. and wh0 will guide me 0n the right path if i g0 astray...

and who will never ever cease on loving and showing me how much they care....

ps: myBanako, iLOveyOusomuch...

Changing myself is next to impossibility...

Changing myself is next to impossibility...


I don't really agree...

I will be there.... And have much trust to myself that I'll change for there's a life that I always wanted.

a Life set by God for me...

and

I'm sure I'll prove it to anyone who's not trusting me that I'll CHANGE...

and be the right and perfect girl for him....

ehem... a better and brand new ME....

Ehem..a better and brand new Me..

Last Saturday, there's a 360 degrees revolution that happen to me.. For 24 h0urs, I haven't received any message fr0m him..which made me s0 paran0id nd s0 impulsiv wd my acti0ns..i jas slept an h0ur dat nyt..til a frend t0ld me.,d w0rld c0ntinues 0n living weder im her 0r n0t..nd ul mis every single part 0f 8...i cryd nd ask myself, wat d0 i reli want wd my lyf?.wil i gr0w f i c0ntinue living ds way?. will i always feel so down and so guilty about my past? will i just stil cling to my old selfish self?

The answer's to all my questions are just up to me. I can answers all those and I know I can have a better decision.

I'm tired feeling I'm always on the wrong corner of the earth. I'm always on the wrong side. Everything I do is not right. I'm tired not trusting myself. I'm tired always feeling the hurt and always to blame. Tired of everything about ME that is so not right...

I wanted to have a new life. A life that is respected and trusted by everybody. A life that nobody can ever dare hurt me. A life that lives righteous and nurtures life. A life, that signifies beauty. A life that is not been judge by what they can see. And a life, that has no worries.

I wanted to have that life and I wanted to be a new ME...

ME who feels and looks good inside and out.


PS: my brain is not working anymore, i can't write more. *.*
i still haven't sleep... anyway, I'll post it now.
gotta go...

myBanako, iL0vey0usomuch... mwah ^.^

kulit nakit.an ra ni nko nga pic. imo mn diay ni gi.edit noh? ahak uwaw ko...
unya gi.post. hehe.. kiss ko bih!!! mwah.. way lingaw ahak..

when to say it's too MUCH....

When to say it's too MUCH....

When 2 say 8s t0o much?..i'v ben l0ving d same guy 4 0lm0st 5yers..im hapi nl0ve..wer crazy,madly,deply nl0ve..but dspyt d l0ve. u sh0d als0 c0nsidr, aceptance, undrstanding, asurance, 0ne's reservati0n, c0mitment nd most importantly TRUST.. despyt d gret l0v we fel, tings wil f0l apart f d0s r n0t present n a rlati0nshp.. as imperfect girl as i am, i admit i c0mit mistakes.. i hurt him b4.. i betrayed him.. i disap0intd him.. i br0k his trust nd respect.. i hid s0 manytings fr0m him b4.. h0wever, my life d0esnt st0p 0n c0miting d same mstakes 0vr nd 0vr again.. my life doesnt stop on blaming or hating others, my life doesnt stop on hiding things... as much as my life doesnt stop on proving to him each day that i am too is suffering with alll the things i've did before.... my life, continues to fight and conquer each odds... my life, continues to grow for the same guy i've loved for 5 years... my life, goes on and is revolving around him and only him...
[thoughts made on my phone and was sent to my company email using uzzap]


but despyt all of dis... there are just things that will really turn our hearts out...

especially things from the past that we nor I can't escape...

me t0o, hav felings... me t0o,kn0ws h0w 2 undrstand nd is reli capable 0f undrstanding.. me t0o,kn0ws h0w and when 2 get hurt.. me t0o, kn0ws h0w 2 put myself n sam1 else's sh0es.. Me t0o,kn0ws h0w t0 fyt nd h0ld 0n.. me too, is capable of changing... me t0o,kn0ws wen t0 say it's too much.. but, one thing I don't know how... i d0nt kn0w how and when 2 ST0p and giv up..

i myt b unique n sam aspects as I may say..but im als0 a typical gal wh0's fytin nd h0ldin 0n 4 d l0ve 0f ds 0ne lad..h0 made my w0rld upside d0wn..nside 0ut.. wh0se "i l0ve u" maters evryting 2 me nd wil surely make me 0k.. whose words "yaw ko byae kulit..." will made her cry for no reasons and will made her insane for she will just smile while tears keep falling....

i keep on thinking what really makes me happy... what do i really want... for if his like this, i'm so down.... i felt that my body is 6 feet below the ground.... i felt that i'm so worthless.. i felt that i'm so cruel and so bad... i felt there's nothing good in me... i felt that I'm a parasite.. and i keep on asking myself if i can live a life that will really meet his expectations towards me... if still i can be the girl that he wanted to share his entire life with... for i know for a fact, that i'm not really the perfect girl for him but i'm perfectly so much in love with him despite my imperfections... and through the sleepless night, and again and again arguing on the same issue.. still, my mind and heart goes back to where it really belongs and to where it will really feel so much happiness... true happiness...

my life and my heart belongs to only Him, myBanako, myBaBy.. to [FRANCIS ESGUERRA] ONLY...
as I'm only me when I'm with you myBanako... through up's and down's i'm only me when i'm with YOU... og kaw rjd B naka.ila nq ana!....

hahahay, i'm now carried away with my love to him...

i shoud ought'ta say everything that keeps bothering me since last night... i shoud ought'ta say "it's too much".. i should ought'ta say "i'm badly hurt" and "i can't take it anymore"... but having the thoughts with him and about him... i can't even put a placed in my heart that I should get mad at him for continuing hurting me through his words... for not trusting me... i really just can't... i'm still filled with so much love to him... i'm still thinking that I can no matter what words came out from him or how much he'll hurt me.. i just don't know when to stop when it comes to him...

i'm committing my love... i'm reserving my life... i'm giving more than everything to him... though I know it's still not enough to him but I'm still willing and will continue doing more than everything eventhough it will mean i'm exerting beyond my capabailities and nothing's left for me...

for his more than everything to me...

I'm sorry myBanako...
iL0vey0usomuchmyBanako.... love jd ayo tka B wui...

Love Lots,

kULiT, your asawa, hoping, praying, wishing and looking forward to be with You again.

Happy Monthsary

It has been 4 months na kulit since we have celebrated our special day apart. huhu guol au. Don't you worry i still feel the same except that I'm always bothered about the thoughts of missing you. ka.charots ba wui. btaw true. Hahai work npd ko ugma kulit nya uli npd ko inusara mingaw au.

I miss those moments I nver get tired doing things coz I know at the end I'll got to see you.

I miss how the time flies when we're together.

I miss the memories we nver get tired to reminisce.

I miss the smile on your face when you knew
things will work out fine.

I miss the laughters we used to share from out of this world's sense

I miss the times just sitting beside you and never get bored

I miss the way u hit me when you gone mad. haha

I miss your voice which sounds an endless symphony to my soul

I miss your touch that keeps saying everything's alryt

I miss your words of " i love you"



I can feel the drops of your tears which keeps on hurting me.....saying " can we be together again?"

Happy 65th Monthsarry kulit! yoooooooohooooooooo......

dreaming of you...

Dreaming of You ..........................................

g.wait ko metting ron, ako ra isa sa area.. huhuhu... pero instead of mg.mok2x kai mao ni akong g.do.. and g.edit2x ko picture... hai!.. i miss photoshop pero mas mingaw ko anang lakiha jd...

mao ni akong g.gamit for editing the pic.. http://www.sumopaint.com/web/ ... og gkolba.an ko kai hadlok ko sakpan sa IT.. gkan na cya sa akong kaoban naka discover ana!.. hehehe..

dli nako kahibaw mo edit og pics...huuuhhu.. batia!... pero anywisz, if nana ko pc ma.ok ra lagi nah.....

gkawat2x rjd ko ani!. and i need to refresh my learnings sah Photoshop jd... ahaks! dn.a ko kaknow mo edit..uhuuh

anyweisz, very first edited pics sa floor...heheh..ssshhh!!.... na.ay IT..

iLOveyOusomuchmyBanako and i'm missin you so much jd... mwaaah....

Last Date.. sa Pinas

Our last date.... sa Pinas...

[@ Lilo-an church & Ayala]

It was February 5 & 6, 2009. 99 days ago... This is our last date before he flew to NZ... I was just hiding my thougths and my real emotions that time for I know sooner, the next day, the next, next day... I can no longer feel the warmth of his hands to mine, the warmth of his embrace and the warmth of his kiss [ssshh!.. wla ni labot]...

[eating tempura]

I remembered treating him tempura ^.^[one of the usual snack we have in going home], went to North Atrium [one of the usual place where we met], grocery [one of the usual chores we made], we went to ayala, left me there while him went to the agency and so busy for the other papers that he need to prepare for his departure.

We also eat pizza that time, [Greenwich]... went to Gaisano South for Grocery [ga.layo2x rami]... I can't help and reminisce those last days for I'm missing him so much. Nothing compares this feeling I have. I'm missin him more and more and more....

What makes me happy this past few months is when day ends and another day starts. For it means that it will subtract the day we're not together and add a day for me to get closer to him.

Certainly in time will find ways and we'll surely meet our paths and be together again. I'm so optimistic about it. As for now, I'll just meet him everyday in my dreams and hug him really super tight [wish I can hug him for real sooner].

myBanako, I'm missin you so much. I really do but I know sooner I will be with you and never ever will get separated again.

iL0vey0us0muchmyBanako..mwah..

I'm badly missin you, please do take care always...

Love Lots,

kULiT, your asawa, hoping, praying, wishing and looking forward to be with You again.

64th monthsarry

happy 64th monthsarry myBanako...


[...our advance V date...]

another month for us to celebrate and another month for our love... again, it's been the 3rd time you're not here with me but you're always here inside my little ...

Though we're miles apart or should I say country apart... still I feel the love within... I still feel the same level of love.. I'm still so much and much more in love with YOU... in love jd ko nmo B wui.. as n!.. Nothings change except that I love you more and more than before you're here with me.. Your absence makes me love you even more.

DISTANCE is really nothing compared to what I feel though I really can't deny the fact that I'm missing you much.. each and every single day pass...

I miss every single bit of You and each of our memories...
I miss myself being with You, talking like it'll never end, arguing our differences, making unrealistic and impossible plans or dreams, reminiscing each of our crazy trips and gigs, and most especially sitting beside you doing nothing but still can't feel any dull moments...

Nowadays, I got to appreciate the beauty of simplicity.. for one single or simple thing can make me so happy and smile for no reason but just thinking of you and only you, a simple 'i love you kulit' [exact format] from you will complete my day...

I've realized many things without you here with me.... I am more stronger and determined... more independent.. got to know myself more.. my capabilities to love and to hold on to something and someone so special... braver enough to handle and manage things properly... the more I gain TRUST to myself that I can... this is just a little test for me and surely I can surpass and conquer this all..

I am much more expressive writing my thoughts and emotions to let you know what I went through...

I want you to know and everyone else that I'm still madly, deeply so in love with you... that's why I'm posting my personal message in our blog.. hehehe...

I'm happy still I have the same feelings for you... and still very much happy that it's still YOU i wanna share my happiness and give my love to...

iL0vey0usomuchmyBanako...mwah..

[...harts day gift...]

Happy 64th monthsarry, hoping, wishing, praying and looking forward to be with you again.. mwah..

L0ve L0ts,
kULiT, your asawa...

i L0ve y0u spam.... ^-^

...................................... i LOve yOu spam




For the last day of April.... my new entry is an "iL0vey0u" spam to myBanako.... hehehehe..

iL0vey0usomuchmyBanako..mwah....
iL0vey0usomuchmyBanako..mwah....
iL0vey0usomuchmyBanako..mwah.
iL0vey0usomuchmyBanako..mwah....
iL0vey0usomuchmyBanako..mwah....
iL0vey0usomuchmyBanako..mwah....
iL0vey0usomuchmyBanako..mwah.
iL0vey0usomuchmyBanako..mwah....

iL0vey00000uuuuu sooo much... and much and much more.... but i'm afraid my shout is too short to let you hear how much i love you....




hehehhehhe.... i will soon post my 64th monthsarry letter for myBanako..... i'm not that busy though I am just a little lazy this past few days that's why I haven't post my message for our 64th month.... The message is already done, I finished it last April 20.. heheheh..

I'll post it soon .... but for now let me shout so that he can hear in the other end that I love him so much... and much.. and much... and much more...

I am really in love... weeee!!


[message here soon for the 64th monthsarry]
.............. i place it on a new entry above... you may click the link for the 64th monthsarry message


iL0vey0usomuchmyBanako.. mwah..

i miss you much.. but I fell so in love than missing you that much, your alway here though in my little yet so in love heart of mine... wweee!

L0ve L0ts,

kulit, your asawa