confused....
Labels: changes, forgiveness, in love, missin someoneI'm confused...
I don't know what to do...
I'm fighting with my heart and with my brain...
My heart tells me I'm not tired doing all the things... but my brain oppose it...
I wanna do things but so afraid and have many fears what are the outcomes... the result...
I wanna rest my heart from the pain it always feels...
I wanna rest...
I'm tired...
I'm tired feeling this way...
so confused and so scared....
I wanna be the one who's brave that can handle anything...
I wanna be the one who's not scared of losing him...
I wanna be the one who's giving him conditions and lectures....
I wanna be the one who's brave enought to show him that I can always exist without him in my world...
But his my weakness... how can I possibly do all these things I have in my head....
But I have to... I need to... If I want him to realize on things... If I want him to miss me much... If I want him to let me feel how I feel....
I have to... I need to.. but I just CAN'T....
huhuhuhu.. what else should I do...
what else I need to do...
I'm tired...