family....

One big happy family...

This is our inangkon nga baby... hehehe.. isn't he cute and adorable? samot na ang nangangkong parents...

si Daddy Franz medyo stress man...
si Mommy kULiT wafa... heheheh...
si Baby kai super cute..

peace myBanako, wafo pd akong bana kaya...

bydaway, he is Baby Philip...

sooner, we will have our own one Big happy family myBanako, rayt?... mmmmmwwaaahh

miss you so much myBanako.....


iL0vey0usomuchmyBanako... mwwaaahhhhhh

Happy Father's Day...

myBanako, happy father's day...


mmmmmmmmmwwwwwwwwwaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....

thank you for the care myBanako,
for protecting me...
for the pangasaba sahay...
for teaching me how to be strong...
for believing in me...

for trusting me though gamay rah...
for accepting me..
for never tired of saying those 3 wonderful words "i L0ve you kulit" (ngek! 4 words d.ay)

iL0veyousomuchmyBanako...mwaaah...


ps: tell pd jong B, hapi father's day pd...

happy father's day to you... mwah.

Happy 66th monthsary....

Happy 66th m0nthsary myBanak0..

I'm still amaze with the l0ve we shared and h0w everything started.. Its m0re than 5 years and still can remember that day when I'm officially your's and you're officially mine.. myBanak0, I really can't bare the thought 0f you s0 far away with me..Its tearin my heart into pieces each day and i feel so homeless, for its always in you where my heart go home and bel0ng.. each day your not with me, my thought always wandering when will be the next time I'll held you so close.. so close that I can hear your breath... I'm always anticipating 0f making m0re happy mem0ries with you myBanak0.. I wanna be with you 'til, my hair color turn out all to grey or white, i wanna be with you 'til, I'll see our children grow and them having their own children, i wanna be with you myBanak0 for the rest of God's given life t0 me.. I wanna share my achievements, happy days and sad moments with you only... myBanak0, I will be with you soon. I'm sure with that and really can't wait for that time...

I'll be with you sooner, spending my life and loving you for the rest it brings....

iL0vey0usomuchmyBanako..mwah...


L0ve L0ts,
kulit, your asawa

hoping, praying, wishing and looking forward to be with You again...

PAST do not define the FUTURE...

I admit I have flaws..
I have s0 many insecurities and issues.. in life and in me...
I'm n0t a perfect girl as 0thers may think I Am.
I'm stubborn and rude.
I want my 0wn ways always.
I understand but tend t0 n0t understand. I'am such a risk taker.
I d0n't care and d0n't mind what 0ther thinks.
I feel worthless and feel pity to myself.

There still m0re 0f negative attitude I c0mp0se 0f.
And f0r all i kn0w the r0ot 0f it defines what happened in my past.
I was blaming my past f0r what I Am n0w.
It was s0 hard when I think 0f what life will I have instead 0f playing ar0und with 0ther kids. Instead 0f thinking 0n l0lip0ps, ice creams nd n0 clases..

And there I was, thinking h0w will I be happy with it, h0w will I live with it and h0w will I forget all of it.

My past d0 n0t define my present and 0f course I'll n0t all0w my future... but as I gr0w up and discover a lot of things.. I easily give my trust to someone but don't give myself a chance to TRUST myself.. I tend to forget everything and start a new each day. I thought I already did. I thought those were just one bad dream that one day I can't think of but, those always come back, haunt me s0metimes n my dream..it was really a nightmare..I just wanna live al0ne,g0 to a place that n0b0dy knew me.. for I'm s0 afraid being judge being criticize.. H0wever, in the cruel life I had before.. there is one good thing happened ...he came.. and disc0ver I'm als0 real.. But then again it just seems my past define my attitude, my pers0nality especially 0n h0w i c0pe up 0n tings.. But i kn0w there's always a big r0om to gr0w and enough time t0 change. Though I felts sometimes I'm all alone in this j0urney...but depsite all, the things from the past and at present I never cease to give up, that is one thing I have... I never quit and never give up...

I have much m0re faith in HIM.. and in ME...

And there's always be that s0meone wh0 will n0t left me and s0me few true friend wh0 will always lift me up and never let me g0 0n this j0urney.. and wh0 will guide me 0n the right path if i g0 astray...

and who will never ever cease on loving and showing me how much they care....

ps: myBanako, iLOveyOusomuch...

Changing myself is next to impossibility...

Changing myself is next to impossibility...


I don't really agree...

I will be there.... And have much trust to myself that I'll change for there's a life that I always wanted.

a Life set by God for me...

and

I'm sure I'll prove it to anyone who's not trusting me that I'll CHANGE...

and be the right and perfect girl for him....

ehem... a better and brand new ME....

Ehem..a better and brand new Me..

Last Saturday, there's a 360 degrees revolution that happen to me.. For 24 h0urs, I haven't received any message fr0m him..which made me s0 paran0id nd s0 impulsiv wd my acti0ns..i jas slept an h0ur dat nyt..til a frend t0ld me.,d w0rld c0ntinues 0n living weder im her 0r n0t..nd ul mis every single part 0f 8...i cryd nd ask myself, wat d0 i reli want wd my lyf?.wil i gr0w f i c0ntinue living ds way?. will i always feel so down and so guilty about my past? will i just stil cling to my old selfish self?

The answer's to all my questions are just up to me. I can answers all those and I know I can have a better decision.

I'm tired feeling I'm always on the wrong corner of the earth. I'm always on the wrong side. Everything I do is not right. I'm tired not trusting myself. I'm tired always feeling the hurt and always to blame. Tired of everything about ME that is so not right...

I wanted to have a new life. A life that is respected and trusted by everybody. A life that nobody can ever dare hurt me. A life that lives righteous and nurtures life. A life, that signifies beauty. A life that is not been judge by what they can see. And a life, that has no worries.

I wanted to have that life and I wanted to be a new ME...

ME who feels and looks good inside and out.


PS: my brain is not working anymore, i can't write more. *.*
i still haven't sleep... anyway, I'll post it now.
gotta go...

myBanako, iL0vey0usomuch... mwah ^.^

kulit nakit.an ra ni nko nga pic. imo mn diay ni gi.edit noh? ahak uwaw ko...
unya gi.post. hehe.. kiss ko bih!!! mwah.. way lingaw ahak..